chillertwist
Active member
Hi
I guess there are a lot of people out there that have been in a relationship that shook them to their core and shaped their whole life. Well, mine was in April 1998 when my north node transited my north node. Me and my best friend started a secret affair and were inseperable. It lasted a year until we drifted apart and went to separate universities.
We remained friends, which wasn't enough for me and I became needy and jealous. She turned to drugs to numb her pain. She fell so deep into the whole drugs scene that I got worried something would happen to her and had to get her parents to intervene. She hasn't spoke to me since. It's been 13 years and I still think about her even now....it really was a life changing relationship for me.
Both of us are now happily married to men and have children. Although 13 years on, I still feel there are unresolved issues and think of her often and wonder if we will ever speak again. It's not a romantic reconciliation I want...but I lost my best friend back then and because the relationship was secret I had NOBODY to talk to. It was a dark time for me. I kind of feel, with the 8th house stellium I have in my chart, that she was a big karma lesson for me.
Sometimes I think about sending her a message on facebook just to say "hey, how you doing" but I always stop myself. Is it all best left? I don't have her exact birth time, I think it was late morning so I have plumped for midday. Here is the synastry and composite charts....is this just a bad relationship to forget once and for all, or is it worth trying to salvage something now we are both older and hopefully more mature?
I guess there are a lot of people out there that have been in a relationship that shook them to their core and shaped their whole life. Well, mine was in April 1998 when my north node transited my north node. Me and my best friend started a secret affair and were inseperable. It lasted a year until we drifted apart and went to separate universities.
We remained friends, which wasn't enough for me and I became needy and jealous. She turned to drugs to numb her pain. She fell so deep into the whole drugs scene that I got worried something would happen to her and had to get her parents to intervene. She hasn't spoke to me since. It's been 13 years and I still think about her even now....it really was a life changing relationship for me.
Both of us are now happily married to men and have children. Although 13 years on, I still feel there are unresolved issues and think of her often and wonder if we will ever speak again. It's not a romantic reconciliation I want...but I lost my best friend back then and because the relationship was secret I had NOBODY to talk to. It was a dark time for me. I kind of feel, with the 8th house stellium I have in my chart, that she was a big karma lesson for me.
Sometimes I think about sending her a message on facebook just to say "hey, how you doing" but I always stop myself. Is it all best left? I don't have her exact birth time, I think it was late morning so I have plumped for midday. Here is the synastry and composite charts....is this just a bad relationship to forget once and for all, or is it worth trying to salvage something now we are both older and hopefully more mature?