DragnicDaelin
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I feel torn between Saturn and Neptune.
Brief background
My Saturn return had me move to Australia for a relationship, the relationship becoming turbulent I went to Canada for work and friends to give space. My 2nd Australian visa was refused and I ended up spending 6 months and turning 30 in Los Angeles. It was a year of profound clarity and certainty - unlike any I had every experienced.
Now I am without direction - a Tr Neptune square natal Saturn aspect. I am in Hong Kong, a city that I have a huge affinity for and deciding to put down roots here and get a work visa and 'become a (partially) normal adult'. That however scares me sh!tless because it's commitment and structure yet it means I'll finally get what I want. A home, security, a partner (the perfect [I stress perfect] guy fell out of the sky a week ago), stability and move away from being flung around the planet (as I have been for the past 6 years). I know that my insecurity over putting down roots in HK is based on the 'realness' of what life is and I will get through this.
I know my chart is intense, I am an intense person. This period however is really hard because I do not know what exactly to do.
~Saturn has me focused on being committed. Saturn conjunct Sun on Solar Return, Tr Saturn conjunct the IC and making it's slow climb to my MC
~Neptune that has flung me into a new spiritual crises and my belief in the unseen has never been more profound and paramount in my daily life. I have bouts of being able to focus and other days where I am drifting in nirvana. The fact that my Neptune is pretty much a singleton with no strong aspect to any other planet (semi-sextile to Mercury) much mean it's stronger in it's influence?
Is this a period of intense dreaming (Neptune) and creation (Saturn). Will my dreams and aspirations be ungodly high and with Saturn on my back - ensure that I get to them?
Brief background
My Saturn return had me move to Australia for a relationship, the relationship becoming turbulent I went to Canada for work and friends to give space. My 2nd Australian visa was refused and I ended up spending 6 months and turning 30 in Los Angeles. It was a year of profound clarity and certainty - unlike any I had every experienced.
Now I am without direction - a Tr Neptune square natal Saturn aspect. I am in Hong Kong, a city that I have a huge affinity for and deciding to put down roots here and get a work visa and 'become a (partially) normal adult'. That however scares me sh!tless because it's commitment and structure yet it means I'll finally get what I want. A home, security, a partner (the perfect [I stress perfect] guy fell out of the sky a week ago), stability and move away from being flung around the planet (as I have been for the past 6 years). I know that my insecurity over putting down roots in HK is based on the 'realness' of what life is and I will get through this.
I know my chart is intense, I am an intense person. This period however is really hard because I do not know what exactly to do.
~Saturn has me focused on being committed. Saturn conjunct Sun on Solar Return, Tr Saturn conjunct the IC and making it's slow climb to my MC
~Neptune that has flung me into a new spiritual crises and my belief in the unseen has never been more profound and paramount in my daily life. I have bouts of being able to focus and other days where I am drifting in nirvana. The fact that my Neptune is pretty much a singleton with no strong aspect to any other planet (semi-sextile to Mercury) much mean it's stronger in it's influence?
Is this a period of intense dreaming (Neptune) and creation (Saturn). Will my dreams and aspirations be ungodly high and with Saturn on my back - ensure that I get to them?