Dear Kainous,
Thanks very much for having a go at my chart. I am not familiar with sidereal, but from your reading, there are certainly some salient points.
I'd first mention that for a long time, I did not know my birth time, and so had with astrologers assumed myself as a Leo Rising (in a tropical chart). There is something to that characterization, but I'm also prone to some of the Capricorn rising tendencies it seems.
I'm somewhat shy / nervous, occasionally isolated, and deeply empathic and compassionate (so long as nobody rubs me the wrong way), which is indicative of Cancer sun. So it is a strange mix. I was also under the assumption that the Leo rising would tend to emerge later in life as other aspects were worked through or released / eased into, as well me crossing my midheaven.
Your Aquarius tendency in fact resonates with me, unfortunately (but kudos to your read!). As it reads so unfortunately, what would one do to rectify or work with that particular aspect? I do believe now that certain negative tendencies within a chart -- once one becomes aware -- are there to help one learn, release, improve, etc. In other words, if I am, or have displayed a propensity toward "doormat-ness," this is something to transform, no?
The Sun in Gemini, with its overactive, sometimes flighty, multi-faceted and insomniac mind may be incisive on your part (or simply on the sidereal's). I do also resonate with cancer too; it may in fact be something like a Gemini-Cancer cusp type of feel for me. My mother and only brother / sibling are Cancer suns in tropical; at least in the tropical chart, my Saturn (whom I read as my father) falls in Gemini.
I do take some issue with your read the location of the Saturn conjunct; if it is in any way similar to the sun's proximity on the tropical chart, I can tell you from experience -- not the chart -- that living this aspect, despite its broader conjunction, was brutal and psychologically / emotionally debilitating. We are talking life-long severity. Perhaps you can elaborate on the Part of Fortune? I am not familiar with this, or how close it may be affecting my sun. And if I am misreading your read on the conjunction, I apologize in advance.
I don't intend to read a permanent, fatalistic prescription into the chart itself re: Saturn; however, from my life experience, plus reading the way the Saturn aspects itself intensely to Mars and to Pluto, thereby creating the T-square, it casts one intense, long shadow. You do acknowledge the father difficulties further down, and yes, I'd suppose it would impact upon the circulation of information, but not only that.
I can possibly say that it may be the case -- one astrologer has pointed this out -- that the Saturn figure as it reads / sits in my chart specifically is, in essence, smaller than me. That is to say, either its placement, or formations, or whatever, do not overshadow the strengths or integrity of my being in the lifetime. I also have gifts and abilities, as well as handicaps and disadvantages. If I am clear enough in releasing old karmic baggage and transforming myself, I can emerge stronger. The mind is sharp, as you note, and I do appreciate that. Maybe this mind can work itself out from under some of the heaver things that can bog down. But the above task is a huge one, and decidedly not easy, nor very "fun."
Your read on the moon is quite interesting. There are some impulsive qualities. Though I get held up myself in life, I do, at least silently, get peeved with people who do not take action for themselves when it would benefit them to do so. I have identified with moon in Taurus for so long, it is hard to shift that perception immediately, but being Gemini in your read, I am able to hold the different views in my mind w/o judgement at this point. Anything that can shed light and aid progress I feel is ultimately a positive thing.
My biggest question for you re: the entire read is reconciling the very intensive energies you note between Pluto / Mars / Sun. This can be a herculean task. Sometimes, as I greatly appreciate your generous and insightful read, telling a majorly Saturn/Pluto-aspected individual to be more lighthearted is a hard pill to swallow. Ultimately the goal is to lighten one's being in the world, to experience more joy, less sorrow.
But . . . as to how one with these dominant aspects may go about this lightening: practical, effective steps could be a major, and majorly enlightening and valuable (not that you must be the one to provide this, but again, you have made incisive insights around this formation). Finding a spiritual practice that lightens, and instills joy, balance, peace etc. would certainly be a good start -- I agree there, and have had some success with this. If there are other, practical ways to move towards a 'Lightness of Being,' I'm all ears. And fun, but not as others may experience fun? Like my own way of 'funning?' (And what would this be? Writing long meanderings in online forums? Lol . . . suggestions appreciated)
Looking towards the Sag is likely a smart way to go . . . I wonder if the spiritual mastery direction to mollify the harsh Pluto / Mars aspects may also have something also to do with not feeding into the lower vibrational desires of difficulty, hostility, obsession represented by those aspects . . . maybe looking more towards grace, acceptance, absolution, etc. But the whole thing is a rather difficult proposition.
Chiron in Pisces vs. Chiron in Aries . . . well, I have to say that Chiron in Aries, as challenging as it may sound, does resonate with my overall life-picture. It is something akin to the self-worth issues indicated by the dominance of Saturn in the chart.
Something too there with the child-like-ness, I agree. Thank you. I think a more evolved reader may take it as a compliment. I don't, however, come off as very child-like, but the child-like way I perceive the world does not usually fall in traditional modes.
Also, yes on the stomach and insomniac tendencies. No smoking here, can't tolerate it, and never had any desire. Not much of a drinker either. Something to the throat thing, as in, when I do some heavier speaking, I have had a tendency towards losing my voice or going hoarse. Hmm . . .
One last thing I noticed in the switch from a tropical to a sidereal chart: the emphasis seems to change over somewhat from a more Saturn-dominated chart (tropical), w/ Capricorn rising, to a somewhat more Sun-oriented chart (sidereal), with Leo rising, perhaps moving away from the Chiron in Aries, etc. It's almost like Sun bumps out Saturn on the ascendant. This is very interesting shift indeed. Had you noticed this as well? And how would one make an informed decision as to the weight of a tropical over a sidereal perspective? It is hard to say which is 'right'; I'd prefer to be free of Saturn's grip, and be more 'sunny.' Easier said than done (lol)
Thanks again -- I look forward to any feedback you may have