neptune ,the 12th house and pisces was a fascinating read. and it touched on something i had been pondering recently too, it mentioned the desire of equality in relationships.this is something i've always wanted in all relationships ,recently i thought about the subject and began to think maybe i need to somehow change my view on this and that its just an ideal, as much as ive wanted to strive for it. some relationships the female is more dominant and in others she is more submissive ,in some men make the decisons and in others they don't,in some one earns more money ,or one does more chores.its rarely equal 50/50 across the board. I have a difficult time being in charge of a situation or partnerships but at the same time i have difficulty letting someone else take control.
there was definatley a victim /saviour role setup in the last relationship and my help and effort was more taken for granted. I responded to it after the breakup by becoming cellibate for quite some time afterwards,that might sound extreme or difficult but its surprisingly easier than others may imagine as I have mars conjunction saturn in virgo! although i do think my venus in gemini does get a bit frustrated and fed up with it sometimes lol. as much as i tried with random one night stands and no strings attached i struggled to get any enjoyment from that and so cellebacy is often the option as I had difficulty approaching new relationships.
the last book was quite detailed,there was a lot to read through it started off with the text about neptune in the 7th but then i wondered if it was changing into another interpretation, the stuff it progressed into about sex was interesting too lol. it looked good even though i got confused! after reading the first bit i did feel a bit miserable ,maybe because i read it as doom and gloom, the bit where it mentioned neptune in the 7th individuals rarely find a perfect union did knock the wind out of my sails a bit but then thats probably just my reaction built up from these unreal expectations i still have.my view on marriage is unconventional I suppose, but I don't really have any big desire for an official marriage.i'm not religously inclined although i do believe in some form of spirituality, a part of me feels i am not enough of a christian to embrace getting married in a church but the whole thing of a big romantic chapel wedding does appeal to my neptunian nature. i also have no desire to become fully christian or religous.so in that respect i dont really like the idea of marriage but I do agree with the concept and having a bond and vows with a partner which lasts.its weird as i dont know if i can see myself getting married but i could see myself getting into a long term stable relationship,i'm not sure if the whole official marriage is something i'm scared of (maybe feeling trapped?).
I think there is a close link between my 7th and 11th houses as neptune in my chart rules the 11th so i think it also affects close friendships in my case.infact since i have so few relationships alot of these interpretations ring true for close friendships i've had.i've often become friends with people i wanted to help or educate again thats probably me wanting to change people and i have had to re-assess all my very close friendships in the last few years because of it.
apologies for taking over this thread and posting about me and my stuff.