As some of my previous horary posts show, I have taken action to apply to go back to school here in Pennsylvania to start in a new field (paralegal/law.) The responses I have gotten regarding this issue are showing that something will change.
I actually registered for classes two days ago and everything is in place: the classes, the funding, etc etc. But now I seem to be getting cold feet and having an identity crisis: Is this what I want? Am I rushing into it? Do I really want to spend the next two years of my life here? Is this institution right for me? Where will I be when it is over? For now, like before, I am still planning on proceeding.
But now that I have the momentum and I got used to registering, filling out forms, making plans, I am reminded of how close I am to my degree in my "home" state of NC, where I went to high school and made it through 95% of an English (and/or Spanish, double-major) degree and left for personal reasons.
If I go back, I would have to find *something* to do and save up for at least a year while I establish in-state residency. I would have to take summer classes to pull up my GPA, possibly for more than one summer (read: may take more than a year to get to where I need to be.) Seems like just as much of a gamble, time-wise, to take as it would be to start on this new educational path.
The other down side is that if I *DO* complete my bachelor's degree, then I will not be eligible for loans/grants to pursue any other degree. I am in the position now where I can get grants and loans to pursue the Paralegal course, but won't be able to do anything similar if I put an end to the matter in North Carolina.
There are a lot of interesting things going on here, most obvious of which are moon/4th house things. I do not know what this means in relation to "home," as Pennsylvania where I currently am is my TRUE "home state", where I was born and lived until 12 years old, but I was raised and grew up in North Carolina and I consider it my "home" state.
The real rub is that this is something I feel like I am going to have to do anyway, either soon or AFTER I've gotten the paralegal education. I want to know if this is something I will do sooner or later (does the chart show?) assuming I don't die or something else happens....
I am moon in 4th house aspecting Venus by trine in 12th (read as 11th?) and Saturn by square in 7th (read as 6th?)
I know I post a lot, hope I'm not extremely annoying, thank you for your time
I actually registered for classes two days ago and everything is in place: the classes, the funding, etc etc. But now I seem to be getting cold feet and having an identity crisis: Is this what I want? Am I rushing into it? Do I really want to spend the next two years of my life here? Is this institution right for me? Where will I be when it is over? For now, like before, I am still planning on proceeding.
But now that I have the momentum and I got used to registering, filling out forms, making plans, I am reminded of how close I am to my degree in my "home" state of NC, where I went to high school and made it through 95% of an English (and/or Spanish, double-major) degree and left for personal reasons.
If I go back, I would have to find *something* to do and save up for at least a year while I establish in-state residency. I would have to take summer classes to pull up my GPA, possibly for more than one summer (read: may take more than a year to get to where I need to be.) Seems like just as much of a gamble, time-wise, to take as it would be to start on this new educational path.
The other down side is that if I *DO* complete my bachelor's degree, then I will not be eligible for loans/grants to pursue any other degree. I am in the position now where I can get grants and loans to pursue the Paralegal course, but won't be able to do anything similar if I put an end to the matter in North Carolina.
There are a lot of interesting things going on here, most obvious of which are moon/4th house things. I do not know what this means in relation to "home," as Pennsylvania where I currently am is my TRUE "home state", where I was born and lived until 12 years old, but I was raised and grew up in North Carolina and I consider it my "home" state.
The real rub is that this is something I feel like I am going to have to do anyway, either soon or AFTER I've gotten the paralegal education. I want to know if this is something I will do sooner or later (does the chart show?) assuming I don't die or something else happens....
I am moon in 4th house aspecting Venus by trine in 12th (read as 11th?) and Saturn by square in 7th (read as 6th?)
I know I post a lot, hope I'm not extremely annoying, thank you for your time
