I don't know if it is so in your personal case...
But most people don't attain to the level of consciousness or the power of will to manhandle their planets.
The place to start is where you stand now.
To loosen a knot, begin by trying to get your fingers in between strands. Tug, pull, wiggle.... As the knot becomes loosened, it also becomes easier and easier to untie.
The problem is that you recognize the astrological symbols but you do not recognize what they mean and how they manifest in your life. "Getting your fingers between strands" might be seen as understanding meaning, which will give you something to get hold of. Note: I was a Boy Scout and a sailor, and know about knots and marlinspikes and whipping bitter ends.
Making small incremental changes in our behaviors is one of the most powerful tools for untying knots. To change a behavior, we must recognize it for what it is...and that is most often the most difficult part of the process. Myself is the hardest person to see in this world.