Modcleopatra
Banned
Hey y'all,
So I'm not here to whine, but I want to dissect some things that have been going on in my life. I'm lonely, withdrawn, and going through HUGE changes in my life. Truth of the matter, it seems like I'm never happy, and when I finally feel happy, I mess it up. And, I feel like I'm never settled, either within myself, or in my external environment.
I've included my chart here. To clear up the readily apparent dark stuff in my chart: I'm a childhood incest survivor as well as a survivor of mental and emotional abuse. I've been institutionalized, medicated, and therapeutically enhanced. Pluto and Neptune have made themselves VERY known.
I was wondering if someone could 1) point out some of the positives in my chart and 2) constructively guide me in understanding some common themes in my chart, or anything that really sticks out to them.
I'm no novice at this stuff: I know my astrology. And please, don't rail on me about the nasty Pluto mess, at least help me understand WHY THE HECK it's so strong, and how many changes I can expect to go through (Pluto's transit in Capricorn is going be hell for me, right?)
What I'm looking for is big picture.
Thanks
Mod!
http://www.astro.com/cgi/chart.cgi?cid=3wbfilefgrr1L-u1108330500_4178947852&lang=e&gm=a1&nhor=867623&nho2=9929352&btyp=2&mth=gw&sday=29&smon=6&syr=2009&hsy=-1&zod=&orbp=&rs=0&ano=1&ast=
So I'm not here to whine, but I want to dissect some things that have been going on in my life. I'm lonely, withdrawn, and going through HUGE changes in my life. Truth of the matter, it seems like I'm never happy, and when I finally feel happy, I mess it up. And, I feel like I'm never settled, either within myself, or in my external environment.
I've included my chart here. To clear up the readily apparent dark stuff in my chart: I'm a childhood incest survivor as well as a survivor of mental and emotional abuse. I've been institutionalized, medicated, and therapeutically enhanced. Pluto and Neptune have made themselves VERY known.
I was wondering if someone could 1) point out some of the positives in my chart and 2) constructively guide me in understanding some common themes in my chart, or anything that really sticks out to them.
I'm no novice at this stuff: I know my astrology. And please, don't rail on me about the nasty Pluto mess, at least help me understand WHY THE HECK it's so strong, and how many changes I can expect to go through (Pluto's transit in Capricorn is going be hell for me, right?)
What I'm looking for is big picture.
Thanks
Mod!
http://www.astro.com/cgi/chart.cgi?cid=3wbfilefgrr1L-u1108330500_4178947852&lang=e&gm=a1&nhor=867623&nho2=9929352&btyp=2&mth=gw&sday=29&smon=6&syr=2009&hsy=-1&zod=&orbp=&rs=0&ano=1&ast=