torn between two guys, please help

hello, I would like to ask for your opinion, as i am in this love-triangle for a very long time and cant move on, can't decide and it drains my energy..
both people are very precious for me.
so just wondering what you can see from our synastry-charts. (I have also attached my natal chart with transits). it's just so not typical of me, I don't understand it and I am so confused..
i'd be very thankful for any insights.

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Firstly, for a proper evaluation you should consider posting your chart with progressions and transits on same wheel found in extended chart selection. Reduce the ratio of orbs to 80%, select smallest image size 63% on picture,then choose house system (my personal preference is for Equal house rather than the default of placidus), right mouse click and select 'save target pic as' and save to hard drive then upload here
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Its really hard to read all those charts you posted but looking at yours (the last one), I see you have Venus in Leo (like me!) so you love like a Leo and your Mars (who you attract, masculine energy) is in Virgo. But I'm sure you know, Leo and Virgo Venus' love quite differently! If I were in your shoes, I would pay attn to what other signs they have, namely their Asc, and see how it matches to my Venus and my Asc. Asc afterall, is who people fall in love with as its our "mask". Then pick the one that best compliments me. But that is using my head. Using my heart, I would pick the one that speaks to me the most...

I might also look at what your transists are right now as far as Venus goes. That could explain why "this is very unlike you" depending on what it is.