Hello everyone, I suffer from extremely low self-esteem and mental love delusions, I live in a fantasy land half the time cos reality just ***** most of the time, I mean I have a loving partner, a good family, not really many friends, but I just feel no one really ever notices me or cares to get to know me and if I am noticed, its not really positive as I have been told i am naturally annoying and can rub ppl the wrong way, I have been studying astrology for a few years now to get to know myself better, but the more I get to know my chart the more I feel like the most boring person ever, my chart is not interesting at all, my partner and friend have great charts, both with Venus on MC, my friend has Pluto, Neptune, Mars and Jupiter aspecting hers, she is super loved and everyone obsesses over her, my partner is the same with the love, I try not to compare, but I feel like a shell of a human much of my life, and dont particularly want to exist most of the time, I want to just fade away, I was hoping someone else can offer my some insight to myself, ill post my placidus, equal and whole sign charts as I use them the most, any guidance when it comes to career/talents and life purpose would be great, im sick of this dying lost feeling i always have had since I was a child, its eating me alive.
Thank you
https://imgur.com/a/BtzB6Sq
Thank you
https://imgur.com/a/BtzB6Sq
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