mayin
Well-known member
Hi folks,
I have been feeling a very strong angry energy within me lately, a lot of aggression, wanting to punch a wall. The reasons for this is mainly financial and work related -- I have been trying to find a suitable job for a long time, and inspite of interest from prospective employers, hard work on very targeted applications, even great interviews at times, I can't secure a regular job. I feel that I am not simply making mistakes or doing it 'wrong' but that something is blocking my way.
Anyhow, I know that I am in the middle of my saturn return. I know that this activates my Mars-Pluto-Saturn stellium in the 4th opposing MC and that describes accurately my anger and frustration. I feel that if I don't find a use for my energy I will not only get further into depression but that I might physically hurt myself through injury or illness. I have been on the lookout for intense physical activities (rock climbing etc) that get me sweating out of the house, and am doing what I can, but everything seems so expensive just now and I can only afford little. I feel I have a lot of energy and nowhere to put it, whatever I am interested doesn't let me in. My usual passive activities of reading, cooking etc are just not cutting it.
My questions are: do you think this will last for the whole period of my saturn return? Just by looking at my chart, can you see anything that I can do to release this energy? I feel that whatever I try do workwise is blocked, do you have any clues as to why this is or what I can do?
I'm happy to hear any impression at all you get from my chart.
Where I personally struggle with astrology is that I can describe situations well but I can't find a solution or release from any difficulties. This is why I am turning to you.
Background info: I have a part-time job that keeps me afloat, its okay but not challenging or growing in the least. I am also studying counselling at a part-time course.
Thanks very much
I have been feeling a very strong angry energy within me lately, a lot of aggression, wanting to punch a wall. The reasons for this is mainly financial and work related -- I have been trying to find a suitable job for a long time, and inspite of interest from prospective employers, hard work on very targeted applications, even great interviews at times, I can't secure a regular job. I feel that I am not simply making mistakes or doing it 'wrong' but that something is blocking my way.
Anyhow, I know that I am in the middle of my saturn return. I know that this activates my Mars-Pluto-Saturn stellium in the 4th opposing MC and that describes accurately my anger and frustration. I feel that if I don't find a use for my energy I will not only get further into depression but that I might physically hurt myself through injury or illness. I have been on the lookout for intense physical activities (rock climbing etc) that get me sweating out of the house, and am doing what I can, but everything seems so expensive just now and I can only afford little. I feel I have a lot of energy and nowhere to put it, whatever I am interested doesn't let me in. My usual passive activities of reading, cooking etc are just not cutting it.
My questions are: do you think this will last for the whole period of my saturn return? Just by looking at my chart, can you see anything that I can do to release this energy? I feel that whatever I try do workwise is blocked, do you have any clues as to why this is or what I can do?
I'm happy to hear any impression at all you get from my chart.
Where I personally struggle with astrology is that I can describe situations well but I can't find a solution or release from any difficulties. This is why I am turning to you.
Background info: I have a part-time job that keeps me afloat, its okay but not challenging or growing in the least. I am also studying counselling at a part-time course.
Thanks very much