i know someone is going to say,get some therapy and don't whine here.need some place to address my thoughts..cause i don't have anyone.i do have my grandparents.but i can't tell them how i feel.they see i´m not happy.they see I'm sad but i can't tell them how tired i am and how i don't want this life.
i´m not gonna do anything like that.because there is that sense in my head knowing how selfish it is.and how it would break their heart.i could never do that to them.but i am crying.feeling empty.and pain.i pray that god would let me go.not afraid of dying.i believe in heaven.and i believe its peaceful.but that would be wrong.
the one dream that has kept is going is having happiness and a family of my own.but I'm afraid not for me this lifetime.i wonder will life take a turn I've been waiting for.
needed to be said.even to strangers on astrology forum.i´s better than nothing.
drugs and therapy just won't fix the hole in your heart if you don't have people in your life.friends.and feeling importnant to someone and knowing you are loved.
i´m not gonna do anything like that.because there is that sense in my head knowing how selfish it is.and how it would break their heart.i could never do that to them.but i am crying.feeling empty.and pain.i pray that god would let me go.not afraid of dying.i believe in heaven.and i believe its peaceful.but that would be wrong.
the one dream that has kept is going is having happiness and a family of my own.but I'm afraid not for me this lifetime.i wonder will life take a turn I've been waiting for.
needed to be said.even to strangers on astrology forum.i´s better than nothing.
drugs and therapy just won't fix the hole in your heart if you don't have people in your life.friends.and feeling importnant to someone and knowing you are loved.