Well pegged, waybread.
I am pretty sensitive to stuff like this, and I have barely been able to look at Cedyze's avatar without feeling very disturbed at a deep, deep level. It doesn't feel at all benign to me, especially given the experiences Cedyze has been having.
After reading the title and entering the thread it almost made me shiver when i
saw the avatar. I thought, what in the world have made you chose such dread
to represent you ? It realy hit me. Idont have wish to judge your choices,
but, woman, stop and think a lil bit, about
where is that you lend your
identity power from ?
?
By looking at your 4th House and this
make me think that
you have grown up in some sort of eccentric (from the average point
of wiew) but rigidly structured belief system community with devotional
practice required service on a daily basis. Beliefs are bone structures of our
reality, belive in something is the way to aknowledge it, to support it, to
nurture it, and trough aknowledge(paying) respepct), support(share) and
nurturing(responsabitlity) we bond our chains with Life. Beliving is the way
we give birth, raise and let reality take its own life.
Even scientist say that we live in Multiversum rather than a Universum and
manny of us are blessed with own expiriences that there are different realms
and forms of life, as well. Those who expirienced, on the other hand havent
always come with positive feedback. There is an inherent quality of human
spirit to belive in the goodness of creation. On a large scale many of us
withness, or at least, i withness that that is not always the case, in fact, it
seems that vampirism is quite an acustomed way to live in our reality. I
think we are (and have been) disciplined to belive with as litle much
thought for the truth as possible. And, i should call it clear and loud, and i
would done it if there's a slightest chance that you get me right. There is
so much disinfo around. So i will put it this way, God is Truth. Thruth is
Love. Love is Life. Can it possibly be that simple?
But to aknowledge truth without judge is another thing. I should put it this
way;
is always a mather of energy. We all seem to be called to judge
what is right and what is wrong within our power to faith and without our
power to discern. What we belive and want to belive have not the obligation
to be consistent with the truth. Well, too bad for us, becouse, as long as
this let us stay alive we dont take the burden about how and why. We do
not want this kind of responsability. But without responsabitlity there is
neither awereness, and what is baaaad
come as a response to the
fact that we emit such a lowlife 'wibe'.
When the term 'Sin' was forged it had an entirely different energy behind.
It had the function to map the spots that can trap consciousness make it
deteriorate and eaven decay. Since it was manufactured in a overbearing
nest of guilt, people began to fall hard, with consciousness totaly spirited
away. Shame and blame condamned us to stay kneeling and wounded.
And sincerly, i think that with this
10th House
/
will call
you on to talk about those things.
As you know, they tend to stick BD and schizo on many many disorders
that dont fit in their net and sterile professional frames, and when they
define you that is almost same as to say that they have no clue what is
with you. And schizophrenia is the biggest 'hot potato' in this field and as
well when the public mind is met. Schizophrenia is the inquisition system
to allow witch hunt for this millennium and due to negative propaganda
wide feared as well.
I think that R4VEN hit it right,
medications ground you. So stick with it. Go
wandering to far in space and have lose touch with the planet for sure. She
provide us a shield whitin the magnetic core that stabilize the immunity
system.
Your ground (4th House) has pretty much weight on it. Maybe i should
say borderline bearable ? Sun in 10th shows that your gravity is centred
in the conscious mind, and not otherwise.
This nasty combo
atunes you to import other realms,
with
MC you can eaven use this gift to teach others how to do the
same, becouse, basicly, is your main asset. You have the blessings of
trough the highlights of mind( 9th )a mightful ability to expand awareness .
Wat seems to make you 'tilt' is the
axis.
This is the coridor through wich you expirience attack. I would rather say
that you snaped than that your ill . . mm . . 'said that you practice occult
since your 6th year ? Have you been guided or you did it on your own ?
Those guys, i think you inharitated them and if you just went trough
puberty there is your reason why they attacked you just now . . .