Yeah, i've attached my chart before, just didn't in this thread for some reason
Thanks for clearing that up but I've read other theories on Quintiles actually being more important than thought prior. There was a thread on here about it somewhere. Guess that's just a minority of opinion though if the majority is that they are discountable.
I seem to be at a cross roads in my path right now. I've recently quit my slave wage job after blowing up in anger over the incompetency of my coworkers/management and disrespectful customers. I've actually grown out of ALL of my former friends.
Being I just don't like hanging out with my old friends anymore. It's draining instead of charging me up. I fear I used to just use my former friends as an Ego booster at times and weren't even viewing them as Friends even though I thought I was. It seems like I've evolved and they haven't basically. So thus I feel I have no friends anymore even though I do, I just can't stand them.
Granted most I made when I was in a party lifestyle and I've just grown tired of it. I'm ready to be serious and build. I dealt with depression HARD from 20-23 due to some freak nerve damage I suddenly felt. It was burning sensation in my insides and it felt like my insides curled up and died. It was so scary. I spent the next 2 years traveling from doctor to doctor and lost about 2-3 grand in the process. Never received anything that helped. Finally went to see my uncle who was a doctor and he suggest I had a pinched nerve possibly but couldn't tell from tests. So I was just told to live with it. I gained so much weight and became a heavy drinker in which I've had NUMEROUS self inflicted injuries, blackouts, hospital bills. I am 25 now. I don't drink hardly at all anymore. But before I quit my job I started to fall back into anger and almost broke my arm slamming it against things because of stress from the job. Turned out to only be a bone bruise/inflammation/swelling. I have anger issues obviously.
I'm emotionally out of control, serious commitment issues possibly stemming from how much of a sleazeball my father is and his continuous cheating on my mother as a child. Nowadays I'm actually my fathers' father IMO. I'm the voice of reason.
I also have social anxiety some what. It was really bad a couple years ago, and after working my last job in which I had to deal with people a lot I got sort of better via being thrown into it. But I still feel on edge in public.
I'm very judgmental. Very vain. Take lots of things personally which I shouldn't. And I'm afraid I ran away from the girl I loved in California because of again... my absolute sheer terror of commitment. Now I'm sitting in Florida (my hometown) surrounded by culture and people in which I can't relate.
I know I want to relocate out of Florida (i'm sorry, this state is insane.) I'm a creatively charged individual. I compose music, draw, edit film, write lyrics etc. If I am not creating things that I can express in I feel horrible. Or maybe not even creating but contributing thoughts/debate/words I feel charged. I need to be heard in essence. Or else I feel useless.
I have the gift of the eye. Awareness. Which is why I excel at Photography/Cinematography. I see beauty in the smallest of things. I know this is what would make me happiest in life. I just don't know how to go about doing it with such little money. I'm not a money maker as you can see with my unaspected Saturn in the 2nd House. So thus I feel I need the right environment so I can get assistance from others who can see my talent/potential and give me a shot. So basically I want to relocate somewhere in which I can meet like minded people. Hollywood does not seem wise.
I was thinking possibly Austin, TX?
