Lacanthect
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Sun Moon Rising Stellium
Howdy folks!
The chart in question
So, in my quest to know myself, I've been casually obsessed with Astrology for a while. I find it to be a fascinating and enlightening science/art, and I know there's great power in the heavenly bodies. The symbolism really speaks to me, and I'm fascinated by the occult (heavy Scorpio/8th house energies?). However, I have an extremely difficult time interpreting my own natal chart. Many online resources have very interesting and helpful information about the individual pieces of a chart and how to look at each one, but I have a terribly frustrating time reconciling contradictions and integrating all the info into a cohesive view of my chart (and myself) as a whole. All I've been able to gather so far is that I'm a freak and a Plutonian weirdo with a divided self, who has potential that I'm unsure of how to unlock.
For example- I have many "difficult" aspects and placements in my chart (several squares, Saturn 12th house, Pisces rising, Sun in Libra opposing Moon in Taurus, etc.), I have an extreme lack of the Fire element, and an overabundance of Water due to a Stellium (I think?) in my Scorpio 8th house, including Pluto!
I also seem to have a T-square containing my Moon in Taurus, opposite Sun in Libra, with Uranus in Capricorn at the apex, making this a T-square by degree, which is an exceedingly confusing topic for a noob like me.
Along with this, I've been looking into "whole sign houses" after a recommendation from someone on Reddit, and it has been a fascinating alteration of what I had originally gleaned from my chart in the past. Viewing the chart this way moves all that Scorpio 8th house stuff into my 9th house, and my Sun conj Mercury into the 8th, which makes a lot of sense but somewhat disappoints me since I'm enamored with all things 8th house!
I've felt a lot of intense pain and loneliness since adolescence, mostly due to intimate relationships (8th house lesson focus/Pluto in Scorpio?) and being an "edgy nonconformist". As far as finding my life's purpose, I feel like what my heart intensely desires is counterproductive to a successful career (Sun opposing Moon?). I'm a musician, I play guitar and deeply enjoy dark, extreme metal (Venus in Scorpio?) but I don't know how to take this passion and manifest my destiny.
I feel like my chart is saying something that I'm not hearing about my struggles, specifically where I could be blocking myself (or being blocked) and sabotaging my growth and development. I've made a lot of progress, but I sense there's more I'm missing.
Any direction-pointing or two-cents-throwing would be immensely appreciated.
Howdy folks!
The chart in question
So, in my quest to know myself, I've been casually obsessed with Astrology for a while. I find it to be a fascinating and enlightening science/art, and I know there's great power in the heavenly bodies. The symbolism really speaks to me, and I'm fascinated by the occult (heavy Scorpio/8th house energies?). However, I have an extremely difficult time interpreting my own natal chart. Many online resources have very interesting and helpful information about the individual pieces of a chart and how to look at each one, but I have a terribly frustrating time reconciling contradictions and integrating all the info into a cohesive view of my chart (and myself) as a whole. All I've been able to gather so far is that I'm a freak and a Plutonian weirdo with a divided self, who has potential that I'm unsure of how to unlock.
For example- I have many "difficult" aspects and placements in my chart (several squares, Saturn 12th house, Pisces rising, Sun in Libra opposing Moon in Taurus, etc.), I have an extreme lack of the Fire element, and an overabundance of Water due to a Stellium (I think?) in my Scorpio 8th house, including Pluto!
I also seem to have a T-square containing my Moon in Taurus, opposite Sun in Libra, with Uranus in Capricorn at the apex, making this a T-square by degree, which is an exceedingly confusing topic for a noob like me.
Along with this, I've been looking into "whole sign houses" after a recommendation from someone on Reddit, and it has been a fascinating alteration of what I had originally gleaned from my chart in the past. Viewing the chart this way moves all that Scorpio 8th house stuff into my 9th house, and my Sun conj Mercury into the 8th, which makes a lot of sense but somewhat disappoints me since I'm enamored with all things 8th house!
I've felt a lot of intense pain and loneliness since adolescence, mostly due to intimate relationships (8th house lesson focus/Pluto in Scorpio?) and being an "edgy nonconformist". As far as finding my life's purpose, I feel like what my heart intensely desires is counterproductive to a successful career (Sun opposing Moon?). I'm a musician, I play guitar and deeply enjoy dark, extreme metal (Venus in Scorpio?) but I don't know how to take this passion and manifest my destiny.
I feel like my chart is saying something that I'm not hearing about my struggles, specifically where I could be blocking myself (or being blocked) and sabotaging my growth and development. I've made a lot of progress, but I sense there's more I'm missing.
Any direction-pointing or two-cents-throwing would be immensely appreciated.