Anyway, that's my truth..it doesn't need to be yours too! It has been like discovering God exists/or sth whatever nature/universe i don't know and it doesn't matter and one thing happening after another and they were linked! It has been like living a fairytale with very down and up phases, liberating and very difficult times..i really don t know..i know it sounds crazy, but i feel like nature/fate contributed to what happened to me..i can t express it better, but what do you think..you believe in astrology..since astrology (which let s say is sth metaphysical, that s how we most name it) exists, so fate exists, don t you think there is sth like God/nature whatever which put us in this world, not just us people everything and gave a fate to each one of us? Everything is relevant, i know, it s how we see it, because we need to give an explanation to things to feel safe..i really don t know...i felt for the 1st time in my life that fate exists cause that s how i interpreted things which happened to me...i will post my natal chart with transits, if you want to take a look! At the end whatever it may be, i will never know and it s ok, i should and i need to carry on with my life and leave it behind as an experience..i don t know if you understood anything from the above..