Good Day everyone… (warning my post is a little long… I am a Sag who talks a lot! LOL! )
Since 2018 has started I have been feeling *emotionally* out of sorts. Been having a very hard time shaking sadness about relationships, etc. As a Sag I normally bounce back so quickly.. but since early March I find myself feeling so very low. Rehashing my life, past mistakes, and all of that. Where I feel this sorrow and confusion the most is in regards to love. I have been (technically) single for all of my adult life and I used to be okay with it, but since this past Valentine’s Day I find it absolutely unbearable and the sadness is excruciating. I have been in an online/long distance relationship with an Aries male for 6 years now, and it’s been making me sad lately. We have no future as a couple. I always knew it and I was okay with what we were and what we have, but it’s like a switch has flipped inside of me and I feel so distant with him. We’ll always be best friends but some dynamic between us has changed. What has complicated matters is I have developed some romantic feelings for a Piscean male friend, that just hit me out of the blue and came out of nowhere! He has a girlfriend - so I don’t intend to pursue it unless his relationship status changes - but there are moments when he and I are together that I feel this energy between us. He looks me in the eyes with a look I can’t discern or describe and he just takes my hand in his and I feel a strong attraction and intense connection with him. Sometimes I think he feels it too, but I second guess myself so much when it comes to men, and my self doubt has gotten worse lately. I don’t know whether I can trust my instincts anymore. I feel unsure and confused about everything.
I am 35 and I would love to have a **real** relationship/partnership in my life. I’ve been yearning for it so badly this year. So intensely.. I actually feel pain and I just can’t shake it, I am tired of being alone. It’s cutting into my soul. I have been hoping that maybe 2018 could change all of that but the Doubting Thomas side of me is afraid nothing is going to change. Ever.
I know Jupiter is in retrograde right now, and I had wondered if that could be part of my problem so I decided to do some of my own research with the limited astrological knowledge that I have. I’ve looked at my chart and I see that Pluto has been transiting my 5th house, and apparently since January of this year Neptune has been transiting my 7th house. In my natal chart I have Pisces in the 7th house. I am wondering if these factors are attributing to my emotional confusion, especially regarding love?
I appreciate *ANY* insight or advice. I want to learn, grow, and make positive changes to help me through this difficult period in my personal life.
Since 2018 has started I have been feeling *emotionally* out of sorts. Been having a very hard time shaking sadness about relationships, etc. As a Sag I normally bounce back so quickly.. but since early March I find myself feeling so very low. Rehashing my life, past mistakes, and all of that. Where I feel this sorrow and confusion the most is in regards to love. I have been (technically) single for all of my adult life and I used to be okay with it, but since this past Valentine’s Day I find it absolutely unbearable and the sadness is excruciating. I have been in an online/long distance relationship with an Aries male for 6 years now, and it’s been making me sad lately. We have no future as a couple. I always knew it and I was okay with what we were and what we have, but it’s like a switch has flipped inside of me and I feel so distant with him. We’ll always be best friends but some dynamic between us has changed. What has complicated matters is I have developed some romantic feelings for a Piscean male friend, that just hit me out of the blue and came out of nowhere! He has a girlfriend - so I don’t intend to pursue it unless his relationship status changes - but there are moments when he and I are together that I feel this energy between us. He looks me in the eyes with a look I can’t discern or describe and he just takes my hand in his and I feel a strong attraction and intense connection with him. Sometimes I think he feels it too, but I second guess myself so much when it comes to men, and my self doubt has gotten worse lately. I don’t know whether I can trust my instincts anymore. I feel unsure and confused about everything.
I am 35 and I would love to have a **real** relationship/partnership in my life. I’ve been yearning for it so badly this year. So intensely.. I actually feel pain and I just can’t shake it, I am tired of being alone. It’s cutting into my soul. I have been hoping that maybe 2018 could change all of that but the Doubting Thomas side of me is afraid nothing is going to change. Ever.
I know Jupiter is in retrograde right now, and I had wondered if that could be part of my problem so I decided to do some of my own research with the limited astrological knowledge that I have. I’ve looked at my chart and I see that Pluto has been transiting my 5th house, and apparently since January of this year Neptune has been transiting my 7th house. In my natal chart I have Pisces in the 7th house. I am wondering if these factors are attributing to my emotional confusion, especially regarding love?
I appreciate *ANY* insight or advice. I want to learn, grow, and make positive changes to help me through this difficult period in my personal life.