Based on aspects and configurations in your chart I can tell you are extremely sensitive. E.g. Moon conjunct Chiron, Moon inconjunct mars, mars inconjunct Pluto, 6th house stellium in Virgo, Mars in Aries in 1st house. Therefore, I want to take the time to say that I do not know you. My entire perception of you is only in the things you have shared (which are bits and pieces/ fragments) and may not be accurate, so do not take any of this as an attack. I associate all of this into a personality I created, based off the given information, not an actual person (you). In order to understand this situation, I’ve had to break down your story and break down your chart into fragments, that I’ve had to put together again. Even then, I have not written everything here, because the truth is I don’t have all the pieces. I would need to learn more about you and look at your chart, much longer than I have, to give a more complete response. With that said, if you relate to any of this. Take what you will, even if it is one word, or sentence that I have written. I believe the best reader of ourselves is ourselves.
In all, take the “you” in my writing lightly. Imagine the “you” as a character in a movie and as you watch the movie you slowly start to relate yourself to the character. You don’t want them to get their head drunk into the school toilet by the school bully. Or not wanting them to investigate the closet when the house might have been broken into and the lights are out.
And on that note, let’s continue with my sketch of a response.
Examine your reasons for being so stressed. No. Please, examine them a little closer.
You express that you are concerned with your job career, and financial matters (10th house). From my point of view after reading your posts, I see more. I see troubles and concern over your efficiency, filling your day to day life with activity (6th house). You want to be active (Mars in 1st), your focus is on self-improvement (Stellium in 6th house). With stellium in 6th house, there’s a possibility you work hard, as you mentioned, but with your 6th house south node here, I see more than a hard worker. Perhaps, a slave. You might think how I could be a slave if I’m not doing anything to slave under. Or… I used to be a slave when I worked under tyrants. No, you’re not a slave to them. You’re a slave to your own expectations. Sounds skeptical? Well, then tell me… Why don’t you think twice before bending over backwards, for these people who tell you to do so? Why do you wait until things go wrong to speak? Why do you wait? You wait for the anxiety, stress, and tension to build. Eliminate that or It will keep you feeling drained.
You allow certain conditions to be setup, but as soon as you can’t fulfill them you selfishly escape them. What are you left with? A feeling a resentment. What you need to do is not set up those conditions in the first place. For example, at the job when your boss asks you to do additional task, why did you feel obligated to do them? You allowed that line to be crossed, and when you couldn’t satisfy them, or receive criticism of them. You respond by saying “I didn’t have to do them” or “I had so much to do”. You need to draw lines. Figure out what you owe someone or don’t and don’t cross that line. And Vice versa. Figure out what someone owes you and what they don’t (in a realistic view), and don’t ever expect more.
Sun in 6th house
These people get stuck in routine, if they are active, they stay, active, and can’t stop to relax, but if they are inactive, they stay inactive and struggle to get themselves out of that pattern. A major thing these people worry about is using their energy efficiently. It’s okay for other to think they are wasting their energy, but it is not okay for them to think so. Since 6th house is the house of enemies it isn’t surprising to see clashes with bosses, or having individuals against you, but that doesn’t say anything about you. A lot of times, it results from jealously of someone wanting something you have. There is no way you can help this. The truth is not everyone will feel this way about you, once they actually get to know you, so the worst thing you can do is not express yourself, because how would someone know your thoughts, feelings, if you hid them or were untruthful about them.
In addition...
Some stand out aspects (why I look at inconjuncts): Inconjuncts are the things we constantly put on hold. I will do it soon, is what we keep telling ourselves. This is the tone of the pattern you are stuck in which is why I seek these.
Moon inconj. Mars – You may impulsively react to your feelings. Mars wants to be right.
These people can find themselves reacting without thinking then fighting for that their reaction even if they know it’s wrong. These people are hyper- emotional and need to stop looking to be immediately right. This stems from insecurity. In the end, they are their own worst enemy.
Your insecure because you want to react, but insecure because how you ended up reacting. You have a lack of emotional objectivity. You have a natural aggression that is just under the surface. You need to balance it. Stop your passive aggressive ways. Passive aggression is an imbalance of feelings and reactions. slowing down the aggression (mars). And allow the emotions to flow, even if they are slow, but don’t allow mars blaze its fire, until the moon has had a change to illuminate. This will prevent you from crashing and from humiliating yourself. Do not get involve with people or situations, unless you have all the facts, or in a position to be an equal. Slow down the jolt to respond. Don’t react at all, the strength of mars needs to be consciously controlled. This will also give time for you to think more deeply and feel over and over. Possibly even giving you a different outlook.
Moon inconj Asc- The alienation of oneself
Acting one way but feeling something else. You’re not directly telling others what you need and end up feeling like no one can satisfy your needs. Sometimes people with this aspect do this to themselves. People get stuck in patterns with aspect. They give and give, and expect that through that interaction with others, they will receive love or recognition. These people can be the type of friend (the ear lender) that listens to the problems of another (the Problematic Friend) day and night, and genuinely be concerned. So, they don’t understand why that problematic friend goes to talk behind ear lender’s back after “all the have done for them”. Or Helpful Harriet, always takes on her boss, Demanding Derek, tasks that extend the actually work she is paid to do. Hoping that he will realize how much she has sacrificed in order to be a team layer, and is confused why Derek never gives her break, becomes even more overbearing, or tells her she isn’t doing this correctly. The problem here is Ear Lender and Helpful Harriet is creating this situation where Demanding Derek and Problematic Friend is obligated to stick around and recognize the sweet, hard working people Harriet and Ear Lender are. However, Derek and Friend, know they don’t owe Harriet and Lender anything because those are just the type of people Harriet and lender are. Harriet needs to tell Derek, that is not in my job description, or it is impossible for me to get that much work done in that amount of time. My job is to do this in this much time and that is all I’m able to do. Ear lender needs to tell Problematic friend, that they understand they are going to through a rough time, they need some help, and that they aren’t necessarily the right person to talk to about this. Moon inconjunct Asc, needs to admit their true feelings no matter how harsh it may be because they are not obligated to these people. This sort of issues can not go on for long amounts of time. While it is not okay to attack the person, it is important to express yourself in a way where you are comfortable. There is no anxiety or draining feeling. No one is obligate to reciprocate what you give. This is a truth one must come to realize. So that they can demand it aloud, so that the other recognizes the “payment” expected.
Mars inconjunct Pluto
You restrain yourself, your ashamed of your power, to satisfy yourself, you feel like you need to earn that, and It can only be through struggle or strife. You don’t need to earn anything. You don’t need to be a slave to anything. Get your selfish desire met. Your problem is your level of assertion.
The truth in all of this is you mean no harm. Generally, people with strong Martian energy (mars, 1st house, Capricorn, 10th house) are leaders, role models. However, with such brave, strong energy comes great responsibility. What your chart is saying (6th house stellium) is that you need to work on yourself. You need self-improvement, with Neptune in 10th house in Capricorn ruled by Saturn in 9th house Sagittarius, that will come from a change in perception. A change (Uranus conjunct the midheaven in 9th house) in the way you are perceiving things (Saturn in 9th house Sagittarius). Think of Saturn as the mars all grown up, Mars is the immature kid that never leaves the soul and Saturn is the grown up who recognizes responsibility. When you grow up, you’re not wise and old knowing automatically, but you are aiming to become so. When you are a kid (mars) you just want what you want. It takes an adult or mature figure to realize you don’t just get what you want (Saturn). We all must work through our Saturn. Saturn is the place where we are limited and once we learn to work through it, and broaden it, the wiser and more secure we become.
Of course, this is easier done then said. Because Saturn associated with Capricorn and 10th house is an earth planet. It is stubborn and slow, but with time (Saturn rules time), we hardship and learning experiences, we learn. We will only find our happiness if we learn. That doesn’t mean sit around and do nothing, but it means with each hardship watch ourselves, watch the way we perceive things analyze that, DON’T justify it. The goal is to become something different, something better, we can’t do that unless we change and transformation, go with the things that shake our bones and rattle our brains. Not the things that makes us sick and gives us anxiety, that is all in bad health.
You must give yourself permission to receive without feeling like you must go into debt first.
If I asked you to serve yourself. How would you? What would be your first step to this? You don’t have to publicly respond to me if you wish not to, but just think about it for yourself. Just remember to examine it closely See what you’re really asking. What are your real desires? You can’t win unless you choose yourself first.
Note: I am not a professional astrologer, I’m simply an aspiring astrologer. A lot of my private studying is based off of astrologers I value.
Hope this helps!
