What should I do to get to the north node part of my chart I'm still a bit lost because I understand the 1st house is the self and Pisces is passion, spiritual, no boundaries but what I suppose to learn to get to that part or have an better understanding?
"No boundaries" is a dangerous way to look at it. While Pisces does have dissolving boundaries as part of its message, your north node isn't just in Pisces, it's also in the first house. First house north node has to do with developing individuality, sense of self as an individual as opposed to sense of self in partnership... and, yes, developing boundaries.
If we look at the south node indicators, your past life story looks like one focused on marriage and family (south node in the seventh house, south node ruler in the fourth). Looking at additional layers of house placements reinforces that picture: Mercury is on the cusp of the fifth house, likely indicating children as well as home, and your south node is in the seventh house/whole sign eighth, which seems to me to emphasize the intimacy and merged resources aspects of marriage.
Reading the nodes' houses alone, we could say you're coming out of a past in which you were deeply merged with your spouse, to the point that your own individuality was compromised. However, their signs seem to say the opposite. Virgo establishes routines and procedures. Pisces discards them. Virgo is concerned with details. Pisces is deeply intuitive and considers details unnecessary at best and a distraction and hindrance at worst. Virgo is stereotypically critical of self and/or others, while Pisces lets all of that go in favor of acceptance and being "one with the universe."
Putting the signs together with the houses, it looks like we're looking at a past life (or ancestral past if you prefer to look at the south node as genetic inheritance) in which you were thoroughly defined, and self defined, by your roles as a wife and mother. (Husband and father isn't impossible, but the emphasis on home and the fact that historically, and even today, women more than men have been heavily identified by their marital status, suggests a female life.) The Virgo placement suggest a concern with detail, with getting everything right, with being the best wife and mother.
The Pisces first house placement of your north node indicates a need to let all of that go, say no to being defined by your relationships to others, no to being defined by how well you meet society's expectations, whatever those expectations are, and develop your own self instead. That doesn't mean you have to let go of your relationships to others, least of all your spouse and children if you have them--just to let go of being defined by, and defining yourself by, those relationships.
That you have these indicators, plus Juno conjunct your sun in the fourth house, looks to me like you have a strong desire for marriage, home, and children in this life, too. Since you're male, the pressure to just be a spouse and parent wouldn't be present for you, and society is not going to put the same pressure to define yourself by relationships on you than it does on women, but you still run a risk of defining yourself by your relationships to others. That temptation is there for everyone. Even stronger is the temptation to let yourself be defined by how well you meet society's expectations--whether you're expected to do well in career, or well at running a household, etc. What your node placements show is that you need to let go of the need to meet societal expectations and recognize the self in you that is already good enough.
