Is my chart as dark as it seems? Internal struggle

Please help! I always feel as though I’m struggling against darkness, like I carry it as a weight. I feel as though I am in a constant fight of right and wrong, good and bad. I am not a particularly likable person, although I am an excellent charmer and initially people quite like me (one of the things I like least about myself is my strong ability to manipulate people ☹️). I am also ruthless, painfully honest (like I don’t know how to be any other way unless I am being disingenuous), excellent at picking out flaws/anticipating problems and problem solving through them. I have heard from many people that I bring out the worst in others. I am extremely intuitive and great read on people. I feel like I am always on the side of the good, but I can never help myself out. I am at this point in my job (that I love btw) where the higher ups all hate me - I will probably never move up - but they know that I work hard, do my job well, and help move the company forward, so they keep me around to disrespect me and pile on the work. Am I doomed to be unlikable and unsuccessful working for others? What do I need to do to end this internal struggle? Is my internal struggle connected to my inability to get ahead/connect with people?

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I just throw my tarot cards on the ground. Are you in law?