Blade
Member
Hello, I'm a sun in Scorpio, and also new to the forum and looking for more of a in depth reading of my birth chart and how it is affecting my life, and how I should handle future endeavors
I'm in college with one friend (I've never had any friends in general), and I'm feeling lonely and lost and like I have no real place in the world D: I'm always battling with myself!
Life for me right now pretty much blows! I've read a website's description of my chart and is shows that I am very self-critical, and can be very self-destructing. Which is true (I suffer from body dysmorphia, OCD, anxiety etc)
I am a bottler of emotions, I struggle with self-confidence and major insecurities. I'd love to have WAY more friends, but I'm so introverted and picky! It really seems as though, I tend to not attract friends as much as I wish to.. I was wondering why.
It also seemed to say that I am very naive, and believing of people's words. Making it so I am easily manipulated. I tend to keep my head in the clouds, and also look for the best in people.
It seems as though I am always giving to people, and they are always taking and it feels as though I'll never meet someone who genuinely loves me for me. My relationships with others tend to die off fast either because of my insecurities or my tendency to make a relationship seem better than what it is. I also feel as though no one truly likes me like they say they do.
I also know somewhere in my chart (I believe the Sun Opposed Neptune) has to do with a distant and/or cold father. My father (an alcoholic) is and was physically and mentally abusive to my mother and I witnessed it within my childhood. I don't know if that factors into my life somehow.
I guess I'd really just like to know why does it seem like my life is just unstable and is destined for the worst? I read somewhere that I'll have to struggle and work twice as hard as the next person to make it in life. (I know it also says I love arts (which I do, I'm in school for Product Design (in which my portfolio was waitlisted )), My birth chart also claims I will be financially and professionally unstable?! Is school even worth it?!!!
Will I ever find friends? Or a love partner? How do I make sense of this all?
I appreciate any in-depth readings, or findings in general! ♥ Thanks guys.
I'm in college with one friend (I've never had any friends in general), and I'm feeling lonely and lost and like I have no real place in the world D: I'm always battling with myself!
Life for me right now pretty much blows! I've read a website's description of my chart and is shows that I am very self-critical, and can be very self-destructing. Which is true (I suffer from body dysmorphia, OCD, anxiety etc)
I am a bottler of emotions, I struggle with self-confidence and major insecurities. I'd love to have WAY more friends, but I'm so introverted and picky! It really seems as though, I tend to not attract friends as much as I wish to.. I was wondering why.
It also seemed to say that I am very naive, and believing of people's words. Making it so I am easily manipulated. I tend to keep my head in the clouds, and also look for the best in people.
It seems as though I am always giving to people, and they are always taking and it feels as though I'll never meet someone who genuinely loves me for me. My relationships with others tend to die off fast either because of my insecurities or my tendency to make a relationship seem better than what it is. I also feel as though no one truly likes me like they say they do.
I also know somewhere in my chart (I believe the Sun Opposed Neptune) has to do with a distant and/or cold father. My father (an alcoholic) is and was physically and mentally abusive to my mother and I witnessed it within my childhood. I don't know if that factors into my life somehow.
I guess I'd really just like to know why does it seem like my life is just unstable and is destined for the worst? I read somewhere that I'll have to struggle and work twice as hard as the next person to make it in life. (I know it also says I love arts (which I do, I'm in school for Product Design (in which my portfolio was waitlisted )), My birth chart also claims I will be financially and professionally unstable?! Is school even worth it?!!!
Will I ever find friends? Or a love partner? How do I make sense of this all?
I appreciate any in-depth readings, or findings in general! ♥ Thanks guys.
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