Grand cross t square... help

http://astro.cafeastrology.com/graphic.php?type=24&x=1200&y=1600&index=32326594&lang=en
Hi guys amber here ! New to the forum. Have been teaching myself about astrology over the last year. But lately I've been analyzing my own chart. I just cant figure it out. What is going on and how will all these negative aspects impact me along with having a lot in the 12th house I'm not really sure how to go about this. Any help on understanding my purpose is great. I have looked into my north node placement which I also cant relate to as of yet at this point in my life anyway. Let me know what you guys think!! Xx love and light

What is the purpose of my chart... it looks pretty scary I understand houses most aspects and rulers and planets but it's hard for me to look at this as a whole with the 12th house being so mysterious... any help is great appreciated cc love and light amber