Rainbowcakes
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Hola
I've had a really hard 12+ months, especially the end of 2016. My life has never ran smoothly and I constantly Experience obstacles that leave me emotionally exhausted. I can never catch a break.
Yes, I've tried law of attraction, positive thinking etc tbh, despite my life, I'm naturally a positive person anyway. It's only the past few years I've had to get real and admit something about my life *****.
The problems seem to be 4th house issue; family (birth family), relationships of all kinds 7th and 3rd (awful early school experiences. I wasn't bullied but hated school and felt ill whist there for no reason. Started at nursery all the through to university) bad relationships with siblings; brother had jealousy issues from my birth that didn't fade. My sister has always been very jealous and bitchy with me. plus I've had some crazy neighbours) 2nd house (I can find ways to make money but these methods dont last longer than a month. For unforeseen reasons the income stream will cease and not remain permanent.
I've dealt with abusive people my whole life too. Most men I meet are abusive and terribly so i.e a history of violence, rape
One of these men who I have to deal with is obsessed with ruining my life and has been a black cloud over my life for years(almost a decade)
Like I said, I've overcome a lot in my life and am the strongest person I know. I've learnt a lot about people and psychology as a result. But... why all of this?
Please help me pin point what is in my chart that creates such chaos and unhappiness
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I've had a really hard 12+ months, especially the end of 2016. My life has never ran smoothly and I constantly Experience obstacles that leave me emotionally exhausted. I can never catch a break.
Yes, I've tried law of attraction, positive thinking etc tbh, despite my life, I'm naturally a positive person anyway. It's only the past few years I've had to get real and admit something about my life *****.
The problems seem to be 4th house issue; family (birth family), relationships of all kinds 7th and 3rd (awful early school experiences. I wasn't bullied but hated school and felt ill whist there for no reason. Started at nursery all the through to university) bad relationships with siblings; brother had jealousy issues from my birth that didn't fade. My sister has always been very jealous and bitchy with me. plus I've had some crazy neighbours) 2nd house (I can find ways to make money but these methods dont last longer than a month. For unforeseen reasons the income stream will cease and not remain permanent.
I've dealt with abusive people my whole life too. Most men I meet are abusive and terribly so i.e a history of violence, rape
One of these men who I have to deal with is obsessed with ruining my life and has been a black cloud over my life for years(almost a decade)
Like I said, I've overcome a lot in my life and am the strongest person I know. I've learnt a lot about people and psychology as a result. But... why all of this?
Please help me pin point what is in my chart that creates such chaos and unhappiness
Chart-
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