It was of the best experiences of my life. For real.
I wasn't in any pain when I passed out in the ocean. I was in an undertow, couldnt break free, couldn't get air. I remember that I started to panic but then as I knew I had run out of breath, a sudden calm came over me. I JUST LET GO...
It was a beautiful feeling. And it helped me realise that death is not a horrible scary thing....it was comforting and beautiful. I saw bright white light that was blinding, but glorious.
Everything was taking place in my mind but it felt real. I was floating unconscious underwater at this time but so many things were happening internally. [Stationary Neptune conjunct Mercury in Scorpio]
I saw a train like image going by, and it was like a moving image of the past 14 years of my life, flashing by me, and then my Grandfather appeared, with his hand reaching out to me, but I heard him say I didnt have to come with him yet,
I could return to my life, it was up to me...[Tr South Node conjunct Mercury, opposed Asc?]
Suddenly I was on the sand, coughing up water, with a life guard leaning my head over, helping me get water and sand out. They had found me and revived me after a swimmer had seen me go under.
It was never painful until that moment when I was coughing up seawater. My lungs hurt. But I was fine.
And my life changed for the better...so much better.
I am a Scorpio with the Moon in Cap in the 8th Moon/Mars/Chiron in the 8th.
So learning about Death/Rebirth was the key to my own rebirth. I had been repressing a lot of anger/resentment from early childhood incidents.
I let it all go. Like a rebirth.
It was my choice to return and start life anew. [Neptune opposed Asc?] And I began a spiritual journey which continues to this day.