Have I achieved anything in life?

[Lily1983]

My mum claims I haven't. I wish I never went back to my family, but I got really ill and had no choice.

I'm very upset at her remarks. She said I haven't achieved anything in life, and at my age (33), I should already be married. She also said my brothers have done so much more than me. Well that is because my parents spoiled them rotten even when they were drug addicts!

I'm sorry for putting out this horary, but I'm so incredibly upset. I want to use my hospital money to leave again and just let whatever happens to me be because I can't put up staying with this person even though it's just for a few months.

I'm just trying to find answers. I'm working so incredibly hard and finding it truly awkward to socialise because my life previously was kept away from society as I couldn't afford anything and had to keep working.

I hope horary shows the truth to prove I'm not lying about any of this and just trying to get attention. I guess in life we can't get answers we want and have to face the unknown. But I just need something to hold onto. Hope.

I know horary isn't always correct. I have nothing to hide. And yes I kept posting horary charts about finding love because I'm so desperate for someone to love me back.

[waybread]

I am sorry that your mother was so critical of you.

I am really confused about your post. " Hospital money" means you worked in a hospital or were sick in the hospital? What sort of work do you do?

[Lily1983]

Sorry for my outburst earlier.

I meant to use the money I need to get hospital treatment to remove my large ovary cyst end of this month and just spend it on leaving. I see that's not a good idea now.

I couldn't get help in the UK because the NHS has a long waiting period and going private is too expensive so I made a choice to stay with my parents abroad and my mum is just reminding me how worthless I am.

[eekndyn]

Moms always want their children to far exceed what they had/ and be a better version of themselves. Sometimes they push us or give off criticism that forces us to acknowledge and take a second look at our current situation. There is a harmonious aspect between you Mars and moon which is your mother. So to me things are not as bad as you think they are. Mars will soon move into Aries and give you the strength to overcome the negative thoughts. The cyst could be a cause to hormonal imblaces but soon as it is balanced you will see you choose your mom to help your define the path chosen. Perhaps you thinking it was okay to bypass much needed medical intervention instead of correcting the issue which could in the long run be the wrong choice. Mom loves you. Moms are sometimes harder on the daughter to give them strength. It's up to you to be proud of who you are how far you have come. Don't look for validation from others find it in yourself. Then you will see the outside reflecting and matching what you already know.

[rafaella]

Originally Posted by Lily1983

My mum claims I haven't. I wish I never went back to my family, but I got really ill and had no choice.

I'm very upset at her remarks. She said I haven't achieved anything in life, and at my age (33), I should already be married. She also said my brothers have done so much more than me. Well that is because my parents spoiled them rotten even when they were drug addicts!

I'm sorry for putting out this horary, but I'm so incredibly upset. I want to use my hospital money to leave again and just let whatever happens to me be because I can't put up staying with this person even though it's just for a few months.

I'm just trying to find answers. I'm working so incredibly hard and finding it truly awkward to socialise because my life previously was kept away from society as I couldn't afford anything and had to keep working.

I hope horary shows the truth to prove I'm not lying about any of this and just trying to get attention. I guess in life we can't get answers we want and have to face the unknown. But I just need something to hold onto. Hope.

I know horary isn't always correct. I have nothing to hide. And yes I kept posting horary charts about finding love because I'm so desperate for someone to love me back.

I don't think this question is suitable for horary, as whether you achieved something or not, is really something you should know. There is a square between your significator and her, so tension is there confirmed in the chart.

Perhaps its difference in perception, your mum wants you to settle down and many women of her generation think a woman has no worth unless she has a husband and children, career and job etc is secondary for these women. You are younger and your generation wants freedom and choice to do whatever you want, whether it is to have a family or a career, or not have any of it and just sit and do poetry. So even if you had a good job and plenty of money, in your mums eyes you still have not achieved anything.

Also generally men are more directed towards their goals, men are raised to be the providers, so having a good job, career, good finances, a nice car, a house is what men look to have. So your brothers probably got that instilled in them from very young that they should start to seek these things as soon as possible, whilst you (knowing a bit about your background from your posts) didn't receive the same messages from your parents, you being a woman, you were raised differently and also other things that happened in your family, the issues you dealt with also affected your self worth and how you perceive yourself.


The chart shows Mars in 12th, so its not in particular good position, literally 12th is hospital. Mars has dignity, but it gains so much more after it changes signs into Aries. Also Moon in fall, but changes signs in 5 degrees like Mars. So 5 months/years is when you perhaps feel a new change and energy come into your life. Mars will finally feel like 'coming home' so I think if you haven't achieved what you wanted in life, you will in the future. So hang in there and don't let you family cause more distress to you. It was really inappropriate of your mum to say to you what she said knowing it will cause you distress, and especially as you are dealing with an illness. I'm truly sorry she did this, but just know, we all have our own path to lead in life. We should not compare ourselves with others, if we did this, then none of us would get out of bed. There is always going to be something that you don't have that others do, but that is life.

Now keep your chin up, get well soon, get out of your family home as soon as you can. Another thing you can do right now is write down all your goals you want to achieve and set a time limit on them, set realistic goals and time limits. e.g. finding a job that you like in the next 12-24 months, finding a partner in the next 1-3 years, buying a house or apartment in the next 1-5 years...etc...Also it helps have a vision board, here you can read what a vision board is http://www.huffingtonpost.com/elizab...b_6392274.html

Then once you are back on your feet, get to work and start working on fulfilling all those goals and stay focused.

all the best!

[waybread]

Lily, it's been a while since we communicated, but I seem to recall your mother being highly critical of you. Unfortunately some of us do go through life with a toxic relationship with a parent. So don't even look to your mother to define you. Of course, as your mother, she has a unique ability to upset you, but please get that this is "just her."

I think you've shared in the past that you want to move to the UK. If this might not work out, think much more broadly if you wish to leave Hong Kong.

Interestingly, in the horoscope one's mother and one's vocation in life are both represented by the 10th house, in this chart, ruled by Saturn. Mars is your significator, and it is in the 12th house, which rules hospitals. So please get your health looked after. Your Mars is beyond its recent square with Saturn-- you are ready to move beyond your toxic exchange with Mom.

[betelgeusesirius]

I can completely understand Lily1983.
Things have been unsuccessful, and without money = abject distress.
I've tried hard, but constant failures keep me apart from motivations.
My family is not so supportive, but rather critical and making me feel worse.
There is no backup in my life and I have to move on without anything ahead.
This is probably the reason we rely on astrology. lol
I am glad that your Mars is going to find its place (Aries).
I hope everything turns out as Rafaella's interpretation on your chart.
I found temporary comfort from waybread's and rafaella's replies.