Growing up I always felt like the world wanted to see me suffer and I must have done something to deserve it, but the older I get the more I realize that I’m surrounded by genuinely terrible people who have contributed to ruining my life, yet everybody seems to think I’m the toxic one.
I feel like these people are seen as saints and martyrs for tolerating me, yet I’m the one sacrificing and suffering and having my life and mental health ruined without any recognition or sympathy. The people closest to me think I’m a monster, even if they start out liking or idolizing me because I make a good first impression and am extremely attractive. The ones who barely know me are the only people who seem to like me but I keep them at a distance for fear they’ll end up screwing me up as well.
It’s absolutely devastating knowing how much people seem to like me until they get closer. Not one person thinks I’m a positive influence in the world and it hurts because those closest to me who should understand me see me as the worst.
Can someone read my chart and tell my why people keep thinking I’m a toxic person and forcing me to act like a monster? Will it get any better? Is there anything positive in my life at all?
https://imgur.com/a/wjlzKmC
I feel like these people are seen as saints and martyrs for tolerating me, yet I’m the one sacrificing and suffering and having my life and mental health ruined without any recognition or sympathy. The people closest to me think I’m a monster, even if they start out liking or idolizing me because I make a good first impression and am extremely attractive. The ones who barely know me are the only people who seem to like me but I keep them at a distance for fear they’ll end up screwing me up as well.
It’s absolutely devastating knowing how much people seem to like me until they get closer. Not one person thinks I’m a positive influence in the world and it hurts because those closest to me who should understand me see me as the worst.
Can someone read my chart and tell my why people keep thinking I’m a toxic person and forcing me to act like a monster? Will it get any better? Is there anything positive in my life at all?
https://imgur.com/a/wjlzKmC
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