Flapjacks
Well-known member
What are you thoughts on how to regain faith in life after a lot of bad experience? I don't mean this in a religious sense, although spirituality definitely cannot be ignored with such a question.
I'm stuck in a negative and destructive thought pattern of believing that whatever choice I make will always be wrong, and no matter what I do things will turn out badly. I can use all the reasoning in the world to combat it. I can continue making decisions and doing things as if I didn't believe this was true, but it makes every single movement an exhausting internal struggle.
In the past, there is always a moment when something changes deep inside, and suddenly I'm able to move with confidence. But this time - this time I don't even trust that. All that was riding on my last most important decision set me up for the fall and I didn't realize it until it was too late. I got everything I worked for, and it turned out to be corrupt and backwards - a betrayal of all I thought it would be.
You'd think I could turn it to a carefree attitude, where no decision really matters, so why not go for whatever you think is right without the pressure that it must be right. Yet, that doesn't work either, and that is where I get lost.
I wondered how, for those that have needed it, you have experienced a reawakening of faith in what you are doing on this planet. Do you have a sense of purpose? How are you sure of it, or does that matter to you? What is it? If you care to share, of course.
I'm stuck in a negative and destructive thought pattern of believing that whatever choice I make will always be wrong, and no matter what I do things will turn out badly. I can use all the reasoning in the world to combat it. I can continue making decisions and doing things as if I didn't believe this was true, but it makes every single movement an exhausting internal struggle.
In the past, there is always a moment when something changes deep inside, and suddenly I'm able to move with confidence. But this time - this time I don't even trust that. All that was riding on my last most important decision set me up for the fall and I didn't realize it until it was too late. I got everything I worked for, and it turned out to be corrupt and backwards - a betrayal of all I thought it would be.
You'd think I could turn it to a carefree attitude, where no decision really matters, so why not go for whatever you think is right without the pressure that it must be right. Yet, that doesn't work either, and that is where I get lost.
I wondered how, for those that have needed it, you have experienced a reawakening of faith in what you are doing on this planet. Do you have a sense of purpose? How are you sure of it, or does that matter to you? What is it? If you care to share, of course.