Vista
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My heart is broken...I had to put my beloved dog to sleep yesterday. I am inconsolable and wonder if I should have waited longer. He was on medicine for congestive heart failure and yesterday for the first time he started fainting. He also had mitral valve prolapse. He had 4 episodes yesterday where he would start coughing and wheezing like he was choking and then he would lose his balance, stiffen up and fall over passed out and then wake up a moment later and shortly afterwards act relatively normal. In addition, he had a cancerous tumor on his neck that was ulcerated and very infected, no antibiotics were helping and surgery was not really an option because of his heart problems. Up until yesterday he was still so full of life and acted as he always has.
When I was at the vet he had his final episode at which time he had all the above reactions in addition to this deep howling while he was "passed out." It was horrible. I think the hardest part was his "normal" behavior in-between episodes. Leading up to the fainting spells yesterday, he would cough sometimes but nothing like what happened yesterday. The vet really felt it was the most humane thing to put him to sleep and that we could do all this testing and Xrays, but in the end nothing she did would stop the progression of heart failure and his mitral valve prolapse, not to mention the secondary infection of his cancerous tumor that was sure to happen. I have lost so much over the couple years and losing him was the worst thing I have experienced to date. We were extremely close and I loved him with every breath I had. I feel so empty without him.
Here is a picture of my baby boy and the chart asking if it was the right thing. He is Saturn and his health is Moon. They are conjunct almost exact in his turned 9th house both in Libra. Moon is via combust at 27 degrees of Libra. I am Mercury in the 4th of endings in mutual applying aspect to North Node. Via Combust makes me think I should have waited!!! God it is so heart wrenching!!!! Life won't be the same without him.
Please, anyone?
When I was at the vet he had his final episode at which time he had all the above reactions in addition to this deep howling while he was "passed out." It was horrible. I think the hardest part was his "normal" behavior in-between episodes. Leading up to the fainting spells yesterday, he would cough sometimes but nothing like what happened yesterday. The vet really felt it was the most humane thing to put him to sleep and that we could do all this testing and Xrays, but in the end nothing she did would stop the progression of heart failure and his mitral valve prolapse, not to mention the secondary infection of his cancerous tumor that was sure to happen. I have lost so much over the couple years and losing him was the worst thing I have experienced to date. We were extremely close and I loved him with every breath I had. I feel so empty without him.
Here is a picture of my baby boy and the chart asking if it was the right thing. He is Saturn and his health is Moon. They are conjunct almost exact in his turned 9th house both in Libra. Moon is via combust at 27 degrees of Libra. I am Mercury in the 4th of endings in mutual applying aspect to North Node. Via Combust makes me think I should have waited!!! God it is so heart wrenching!!!! Life won't be the same without him.
Please, anyone?
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