oscarSegal
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Hey guys,
My name is Oscar. Nice to meet ya'll. Here's my question:
I've always been attracted to bad boys ( And for some reason people see me as a bad boy even though I'm really not). The first thing I thought when I first caught a glimpse of almost all of the guys I ended up in relationships with was "Oh Oh bad idea", and somehow that’s exactly what I feel I should be feeling when I meet someone. Last year I was in a 7 month relationship with that great guy. He was smart, extremely hot, rich, had a nice shiny car, he treated me like I was a prince, always bought me stuff, always supported me, financially and mentally, he was perfect. Like Disney perfect. But he was such a good guy which for me was a real turn off and as time went by I gradually stopped feeling attracted to him. He hates my guts now and I can't blame him. He was too good for me, sadly. Shortly after that I somehow met that really ugly stupid and unbelievably selfish little creature who was a conman for living and I didn't like his personality at all. All he wanted to do was party and get drunk, which I like in people, but not every day. It ended up very badly and to this day I consider him the worst person to have ever walked this earth. But I'm still attracted to him which doesn’t make any sense cause he's really bad-looking. That relationship was so destructive for me. It was traumatic and degrading. took me over six months to recuperate. Anyway, now I met that really cute french guy. He's not hot but I like him, been great for two or three weeks and now that fantasy of meeting the perfect criminal with whom it'll be us against the world starts rising again. To quote Morrissey: "I want to catch something that I might be ashamed of". Now, I'm pretty much a good boy. I have some issues with authority but I think that’s mostly because I want to be an authority figure myself but being the low life dumbass that I am I know that I'll never be one of those who matter so I kinda turn all my angst towards any kind of authority. Always been like that, ever since I can remember myself., I don't really fit into that average criminal typecast. And I'm sorta afraid of authority too. I freeze when I see a cop even though the worst crime Ive ever committed was probably smoking weed. So I don't know whats that all about. All I know is I need excitement in my life. otherwise I get depressed and lose my will to live. Will I finally find it anytime soon?
I'd appreciate it if anyone could somehow shed a light on this craziness of mine.
Here's my natal chart, and the one below is my solar return chart, please help me
Solar return:
Thanks
My name is Oscar. Nice to meet ya'll. Here's my question:
I've always been attracted to bad boys ( And for some reason people see me as a bad boy even though I'm really not). The first thing I thought when I first caught a glimpse of almost all of the guys I ended up in relationships with was "Oh Oh bad idea", and somehow that’s exactly what I feel I should be feeling when I meet someone. Last year I was in a 7 month relationship with that great guy. He was smart, extremely hot, rich, had a nice shiny car, he treated me like I was a prince, always bought me stuff, always supported me, financially and mentally, he was perfect. Like Disney perfect. But he was such a good guy which for me was a real turn off and as time went by I gradually stopped feeling attracted to him. He hates my guts now and I can't blame him. He was too good for me, sadly. Shortly after that I somehow met that really ugly stupid and unbelievably selfish little creature who was a conman for living and I didn't like his personality at all. All he wanted to do was party and get drunk, which I like in people, but not every day. It ended up very badly and to this day I consider him the worst person to have ever walked this earth. But I'm still attracted to him which doesn’t make any sense cause he's really bad-looking. That relationship was so destructive for me. It was traumatic and degrading. took me over six months to recuperate. Anyway, now I met that really cute french guy. He's not hot but I like him, been great for two or three weeks and now that fantasy of meeting the perfect criminal with whom it'll be us against the world starts rising again. To quote Morrissey: "I want to catch something that I might be ashamed of". Now, I'm pretty much a good boy. I have some issues with authority but I think that’s mostly because I want to be an authority figure myself but being the low life dumbass that I am I know that I'll never be one of those who matter so I kinda turn all my angst towards any kind of authority. Always been like that, ever since I can remember myself., I don't really fit into that average criminal typecast. And I'm sorta afraid of authority too. I freeze when I see a cop even though the worst crime Ive ever committed was probably smoking weed. So I don't know whats that all about. All I know is I need excitement in my life. otherwise I get depressed and lose my will to live. Will I finally find it anytime soon?
I'd appreciate it if anyone could somehow shed a light on this craziness of mine.
Here's my natal chart, and the one below is my solar return chart, please help me
Solar return:
Thanks
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