UraSatVen1029
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Is this just the North Node placement? or are there some other factors or karma in my natal chart that I have to know?
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I believe everything is Karmic. Chiron will be important for this so research that too.
Your South Node is more karmic and about past lives, it is not seen as a symbol because it is always opposite the north node. Your South Node is in Aquarius 2nd house and I found this online from astrofix.
Having the courage to get involved in what goes on behind closed doors. Getting personally involved in deeper relationships that make you uncomfortable. Bringing heart to difficult emotional entanglements. Becoming more giving in your understanding of other people’s priorities and values. Releasing an overly logical value system. Using your heart to navigate other people’s “stuff.” No longer rationalizing your priorities. Getting to know individual people and their problems. Developing a warmer approach when dealing with other people’s emotional traumas. Finding a partner who brings out your playful side in sex. Letting a more child-like side of you come out in deeply intimate situations. Not being afraid to make a joke when things get dark and strange. Getting to know your sex partners personally- no anonymous sex. Admitting that you want to feel special and appreciated during sex. Shining during sex. Becoming a demonstrative lover. Showing your partner what you want. Learning to appreciate when people are courageous enough to reveal themselves to you. Developing warmer relationships with people who are experiencing states of transition rather than pulling away and watching from a distance. Maintaining objectivity about your personal values while still becoming passionate about the concerns of others. Releasing all of the bizarre priorities that prevent you from engaging in deeper relationships with other people
http://astrofix.net/2010/11/19/north-node-in-leo-and-south-node-in-aquarius-by-house/
Generally I would say the north node, but that big T-square in your chart will demand your attention, to work out those challenging placements in a constructive way.
I think you'll find as you go through life that different parts of your chart will become more important at different times, due to transits (like your first Saturn return) and your passage into maturity.
I don't believe in karma holding over from past lives, so I can't help you there.
I believe everything is Karmic. Chiron will be important for this so research that too.
Your South Node is more karmic and about past lives, it is not seen as a symbol because it is always opposite the north node. Your South Node is in Aquarius 2nd house and I found this online from astrofix.
Having the courage to get involved in what goes on behind closed doors. Getting personally involved in deeper relationships that make you uncomfortable. Bringing heart to difficult emotional entanglements. Becoming more giving in your understanding of other people’s priorities and values. Releasing an overly logical value system. Using your heart to navigate other people’s “stuff.” No longer rationalizing your priorities. Getting to know individual people and their problems. Developing a warmer approach when dealing with other people’s emotional traumas. Finding a partner who brings out your playful side in sex. Letting a more child-like side of you come out in deeply intimate situations. Not being afraid to make a joke when things get dark and strange. Getting to know your sex partners personally- no anonymous sex. Admitting that you want to feel special and appreciated during sex. Shining during sex. Becoming a demonstrative lover. Showing your partner what you want. Learning to appreciate when people are courageous enough to reveal themselves to you. Developing warmer relationships with people who are experiencing states of transition rather than pulling away and watching from a distance. Maintaining objectivity about your personal values while still becoming passionate about the concerns of others. Releasing all of the bizarre priorities that prevent you from engaging in deeper relationships with other people
http://astrofix.net/2010/11/19/north-node-in-leo-and-south-node-in-aquarius-by-house/
Oh dear.
I'm... uh, way behind when it comes to sex then haha. I'm only 19 so I don't think I'll be experiencing that any time soon. Unlike some other people who seem to be sexually active by 16 or 17.
Which is kinda funny because I have three planets in Scorpio, Mars in the 8th house, Lilith exactly conjunct my Sun and Venus (in Scorpio) and other stuff. Maybe that's why I'm not active then? I do have the drive I guess, just don't have the guts to do the actual thing.
The ones I can resonate with is the passion and warmth. Getting personally involved is something I actually fear because of past experiences. In which, I wore my heart on my sleeves, gave it away so easily and loved sharing parts of me to people who mean to me, only to be taken advantage of afterwards. Doesn't help that I'm actually extremely sensitive.
But a lot of times, being detached has saved me from experiencing more of that now, but it creates loneliness and depression. It feels VERY alien to develop my own ego for real. I have no personal planets in Leo, I have Moon and Uranus in Aquarius conjunct, and Uranus is my dominant planet. This is going to be really hard.
Oh right, the T- squares.
Pluto has been a big help ever since it conjunct my ascendant ( Capricorn ). Helped me dig deep and identify what I needed to fix and why I needed to accept change. I'm only really scared on what happens when it conjuncts my Neptune which is within my first house, because I have dreams for myself regarding about Career and goals, and what Pluto can kill here... I'm afraid to think about it.
The 4th house issues (Saturn) are becoming less painful for me now since I've been working hard to fix that one. Home and domestic life is now less painful and conflicts are finally being resolved one by one, the only thing left for me now is my inner foundation and esteem, and also finding security within myself.
10th house *sigh* Hurts thinking about it. Both Sun and Venus squaring my Neptune and Uranus. I'm very career oriented, but soooo many frustrations have come up to the surface, making me really impatient and agitated. Due to the fact that i can't pursue what i really want RIGHT NOW and the doubts that keep coming back to me. Over and over I think to myself, "What if this is wrong? What if its not right for me? what if I'm not good enough? Will I grow old knowing that I never got the chance to make that dream a reality? Do I even deserve it?"
*siiiiiigh*
Good for you that you are taking constructive, life-affirming steps to improve your situation. Just please realize that sun opposite Saturn and Moon square Saturn (which are part of your T-square) are signatures for low-self esteem and taking so much to heart other people's criticisms of you!
This does not objectively mean that there is anything wrong with you. Just that you come to the world with a tendency towards self (sun) doubt (Saturn) and negative (Saturn) feelings (moon.)
Fortunately each planet has multiple meanings. Saturn also rules self-discipline. With Saturn bi-quintile Pluto, you have the capacity for heroic efforts to accomplish what you want in life. You can discipline (Saturn) yourself (sun) to stop negative thoughts in their track.
Or-- put yourself in a really safe space and just let yourself experience fully those negative feelings. Don't resist them. Name them. Feel them. Who were those people who hurt you? Cry if you have to. After a while, I think you'll start to feel much lighter around them. (This is an old exercise from the human potential movement.)
With that nice Mercury-Neptune sextile, you probably have a rich imagination. You'd probably be good at creative visualization.
One thing I just noticed today is that you have a Thor's Hammer in your chart. (Neptune-Saturn square joining Mars through two sesqui-squares.) This is a highly volatile pattern.
I generally think that a productive use of Mars is to take up some athletic activity. Mars rules athletes, and you've got extra Mars influence with your Saturn in Aries. Virgo and Saturn are both capable of self discipline, so you might think of some kind of activity where you can perfect (Virgo) your technique or work on endurance (Saturn) possibly with a water-related activity (Neptune.) The 8th house (notably with your NN) does ask us to get out of our comfort zone.
I'm not a believer in past-lives karma. For westerners it seems to me like a cultural rip-off of the Hindu faith, and then there's no concrete evidence for it. It just tends to make already unhappy people feel guilty over something that probably never happened.
What do you do to be nice to yourself and get enjoyment (that Jupiter trine) out of life?
I think that is brilliant you have done that and I am not just saying that. I was 21 and I think it shows how important sex actually is to us. I don't think you should feel pressured by yourself or others because with all the Scorpio, it will be so good waiting til someone you love! I rushed it because I became impatient with myself but you really only get one first time and I now believe I have to be careful who I connect with because lots of guys want to have a piece and they are not always easy to spot as bad because they don't know they are bad themselves. Maybe bad is the wrong word but I would not want to behave cheap because it will lead to depression.
Something I did notice though is the nodes are asking you to try not rationalize everything and to feel things as you go along too. I can see you are rationalizing and I think that is good to do at a young age but I think you should start now to prevent a pattern of continuously over rationalizing happening.
Your Venus and Sun in 10th are great positions, you will surely reach your social goals. I love sun in 10th people because they appear successful and have a dominant personality.
I wish I could help you with the t squares as what Waybread said sounds important. She also made an interesting point about different parts of the chart being important at different times. It reminded me that Venus will be important during school years so I would look into Venus in 10th square Uranus and Neptune.
Your ability to go from group to group and learn from each sounds like the perfect mix of the Venus in 10 talents to socialize and different groups including you and you learn from each group, instead of just moving on.
Based on the nodes telling you to rationalize less, I would try to have as much fun as you can now. But Venus is squaring Neptune, so I also think you should not 'let go' too much or those guys I was warning you about will be able to deceive you. Venus square Uranus, were you not accepted for your individuality?
The Chiron square moon is a wide orb at 8, so thankfully it does not seem too important. Chiron is nin Scorpio as well, a lot of transformation from pain!
I see you have Venus Square moon and opposition Saturn, I am glad to hear your family dynamics are working out because it sounds hard. I would expect your Saturn Return to cause you to come back to astrology because it is at the IC, a very spiritual placement.
So to gather my thoughts, I would say use your mind to help with the venus square Neptune, do not look for love because your Saturn and Venus Moon problems at home. When you do find it and it is real, learn to let go and let out your playful side. This will be harder to do if you have already been hurt by letting your Venus-Neptune deceive you into looking for love you do not get from home.
Use Venus in 10th to your advantage because your ability to make lots of friends will serve you well, concentrate on friendships and it does not matter if you feel alien because I do too and it means we are different and searching for something else.
I think the alien feeling comes from the Venus problems and your home life. Please do NOT let that venus-neptune deceive you into looking for love in other places. If your parents were not so selfish they would see the vulnerability they are causing.
Gosh-- compared to most of the folks I interact with, I'd say you're pretty advanced. I mean that, seriously. Life handed you what I would see as a difficult chart, but you've done a lot to gain control over your troubling experiences.
The saying in modern astrology is that we can read a chart and make certain assumptions about the person, but really we don't know if the person operates at the level of the bestial, terrestrial, or celestial. I recall suggesting to older people that they might have a problem with, say, their temper, due to a hard-aspected Mars, and the response was, "I used to be like that when I was younger, but I had to learn to control my temper."
If you're on a trajectory for self-awareness and self-improvement I think you'll come out just fine, because ultimately you may wish to deal with your self-defeating behaviours.
I have sun opposite Saturn as well. One thing that really helped all of the insecurities was simply getting older and gaining more life experience. When facing a future event or people that normally would have sent me into a tizzy, I began to tell myself that I had experienced this type of event or person before, and could draw on that past experience.
With all those quintiles in your chart I think you're pretty ambitious, at least deep-down, so please don't sell yourself short. You can thank that critical voice in your head for sharing, then go off and do what you want.
At your age, time is on your side. Something that Capricorn and Saturn fundamentally understand.
I think that is brilliant you have done that and I am not just saying that. I was 21 and I think it shows how important sex actually is to us. I don't think you should feel pressured by yourself or others because with all the Scorpio, it will be so good waiting til someone you love! I rushed it because I became impatient with myself but you really only get one first time and I now believe I have to be careful who I connect with because lots of guys want to have a piece and they are not always easy to spot as bad because they don't know they are bad themselves. Maybe bad is the wrong word but I would not want to behave cheap because it will lead to depression.
Something I did notice though is the nodes are asking you to try not rationalize everything and to feel things as you go along too. I can see you are rationalizing and I think that is good to do at a young age but I think you should start now to prevent a pattern of continuously over rationalizing happening.
Your Venus and Sun in 10th are great positions, you will surely reach your social goals. I love sun in 10th people because they appear successful and have a dominant personality.
I wish I could help you with the t squares as what Waybread said sounds important. She also made an interesting point about different parts of the chart being important at different times. It reminded me that Venus will be important during school years so I would look into Venus in 10th square Uranus and Neptune.
Your ability to go from group to group and learn from each sounds like the perfect mix of the Venus in 10 talents to socialize and different groups including you and you learn from each group, instead of just moving on.
Based on the nodes telling you to rationalize less, I would try to have as much fun as you can now. But Venus is squaring Neptune, so I also think you should not 'let go' too much or those guys I was warning you about will be able to deceive you. Venus square Uranus, were you not accepted for your individuality?
The Chiron square moon is a wide orb at 8, so thankfully it does not seem too important. Chiron is nin Scorpio as well, a lot of transformation from pain!
I see you have Venus Square moon and opposition Saturn, I am glad to hear your family dynamics are working out because it sounds hard. I would expect your Saturn Return to cause you to come back to astrology because it is at the IC, a very spiritual placement.
So to gather my thoughts, I would say use your mind to help with the venus square Neptune, do not look for love because your Saturn and Venus Moon problems at home. When you do find it and it is real, learn to let go and let out your playful side. This will be harder to do if you have already been hurt by letting your Venus-Neptune deceive you into looking for love you do not get from home.
Use Venus in 10th to your advantage because your ability to make lots of friends will serve you well, concentrate on friendships and it does not matter if you feel alien because I do too and it means we are different and searching for something else.
I think the alien feeling comes from the Venus problems and your home life. Please do NOT let that venus-neptune deceive you into looking for love in other places. If your parents were not so selfish they would see the vulnerability they are causing.
Precisely.
And please see Saturn as your wisest teacher. His lessons aren't a lot of fun, because they concern self-discipline, deferred gratification, patience, hard work, and getting by on very little. But if you master these lessons, they will serve you well throughout your life. Saturn tends to reward his students later in life.
You have your whole life ahead of you, so please work hard at what you love, but give yourself some time to develop your career and an affirming sense of self. I think these will come with time.