I'm glad to see you're here making a conscious effort and attempt at change. I like to pretend I'm a philosopher and I wrote a little quote. I think I must have written it for you
"Love creates, hate destroys. Pain is the need for love where there is destruction. If you find yourself in a painful world, it is your heart telling you to get creative and make a new one."
Virgo sun scorpio moon combinations are great for researchers. Not to mention your the 10 fold increased intensity with the moon being conjunct pluto, AND in the 3rd house. The 6th house is often only referred to as the health house, but it's more than that. All mutable houses are psychological, and the 6th deals with service and organization. A detailed breakdown and examination of details and facts for some reason of service. This combined with the long term goal oriented, practical planning and determined mars in capricorn in the 9th house of philosophy and education, as well as saturn (who rules your tenth house of career and status) in philosophic sag in the 7th house of partnership, the public, and one-on-one transactions make you a strong teacher and researcher I think.
There's so much more to just those planet positions, but that's what was on my mind.
Another interesting thing to note is that you have your sun/mercury conjunction involved in a t-square. Sun/merc oppose jupiter, both square uranus. You must have a high capacity for sudden self expansion. Sun oppose jupiter mean you reach out for growth and expansion of "the self" and "mind," and both squared uranus so it can be in sudden, unusual, and unexpected ways. Your sun is also trine your mars as well as your Ascendant, so I'd imagine the change might come easy for you, in some ways at least. As long as you keep your intense brooding (and possibly sexual deviant) emotions under check and don't let criticizing people get the best of you, you have the potential to become very successful.
Keep in mind as you learn astrology that you will hear many different interpretations, and they're all about someone choice of keywords, and projections of experiences they've had. Astrology is all about cycles of energy, and there really is no aspect in your chart that can tell you if you're arrogant or not. It's all how you react to and utilize that energy. Astrology can help you understand that energy, but it doesn't choose your attitude about it.
