Mola, you asked me to read your chart. I'm sorry this has taken me longer than anticipated. My own work has suddenly become very demanding. However, here's an overview of what I see at the moment.
Let's start with the basics. Your Sun and Moon are both in Leo. This powerful combination indicates an extremely strong ego. You are ambitious, dramatic and domineering. Pride and vanity are very strong. You may seem, on the surface, to be glamourous; underneath is a very commanding nature. The reigning need in your life is to be deeply honoured and loved. The difficulty with this is that someone with both Sun and Moon in Leo almost never feels that they're getting enough attention, affection, respect or love from others, no matter how much they receive. People with Sun and Moon in Leo can frankly be exhausting for other people who get the message that, no matter how much they appreciate, care for and admire the Leonine person, it isn't enough. A strong Leo placement in a chart always includes an affinity for drama. To have Sun and Moon in Leo guarantees it. Indeed, you started this conversation with a very dramatic question, asking how to know when you will die because you're tired of the way your life is. That certainly grabs attention but it can backfire on you, too. If you often make dramatic statements about yourself and ask dramatic questions people may mistrust your motives after awhile.
Your rising sign is Gemini and your chart ruler is Mercury. Gemini rising is usually a chatterbox! In your case, I imagine this is highly pronounced because you have no planets in air signs. The air signs are communicators and can be intellectual and academic, too. Whenever there's an imbalance in the chart, we usually over-compensate for it in other areas. You probably like to talk, a lot, and may well have been talking from a very early age. Babies with Gemini rising often speak quite fluently before they're a year old. Communicating is so very important that nothing holds someone back when they have this rising sign. More than just talking, you probably ask many, many questions, all the time.
Mercury, your chart ruler, is opposite Neptune, indicating that you are imaginative and idealistic, but because you can imagine many possibilities you may be more prone to dreaming than taking action. This aspect indicates a difficulty in distinguishing reality from unreality. You frequently completely misunderstand what others say to you or how your own style of communication is received. Because Mercury is in the second house and Neptune is in the eighth, this difficulty in recognizing what is real from what you've imagined may be particularly pronounced when it comes to dealing with money, property, your income and others' resources.
Since you have only one planet, Neptune, in an Earth sign, you're lacking earth in your horoscope. As a result, you're probably very concerned with your physical body, how you look, how you feel, what you eat and when. You may spend quite a lot of time with personal grooming and cosmetic maintenance. Money and sex are also highly important to you.
Your Sun in Leo is conjunct Venus in Cancer, which gives you an even more emotional quality. Venus in Cancer wants commitment, security and steadiness from partners and others and to feel that others need them, with such strong Leo placements in your chart, even if you feel this way, it may not communicate very clearly to others. A challenge you may need to face is to understand that not everything that happens is about you, all the time, and that events and circumstances in your life are not more important than in others' lives.
Your Sun is also conjunct Mars in Leo. Mars is associated with powerful energy, motion, sexuality and aggression. In Leo, Mars is on fire; you may have a quick, hot temper at times, particularly when you feel that you're not being given the respect and affection you believe you deserve. Mars' energy is passionate; it gets things done. In your third house, Mars, along with the Sun and Moon, as well as Mercury (who is in the late degrees of Cancer and is also conjunct the Sun), is devoted to anything related to your siblings, extended family (other than your parents) and neighbours, as well as to the ways you communicate. Since Mars is the ruler of Aries, it is the ruler of your eleventh house of friendships and the co-ruler of your sixth house of work and health. In both of those houses, Mars' energy acts for your and others' emotional, mental and physical well-being. Mars can be protective but it won't shy away from conflict with anyone concerned with these houses, either.
Notice that Mars is trine Uranus, in the seventh house. Uranus tends to intensify behaviour in its interest in encouraging originality, individualism and sudden change. Fortunately, Saturn is also in the seventh house, trine Mars, and seeks to encourage discipline and perspective, which may help, curb some of its fiery zeal in Leo. In the seventh house—the home of close relationships, partnerships and known enemies—Mars' drive gives extra energy to Uranus and supports Saturn's determination to be measured and resolute, which are valuable qualities in this placement.
There are two major aspect patterns in your chart. The first is a T-square involving Jupiter, in your 11th house, which is opposite Pluto, in your 6th house; both planets are squared by the Sun, in your third house. You have a powerful, personal desire for expansion, including personal development and the transformation of friends, family members, co-workers and your community. You may have difficulty having faith in God or you may feel a need to question others' beliefs.
Psychologically speaking, Sun square Pluto is one of the most influential aspects in your chart. Women with this aspect usually end up in relationships with men they believe to be powerful and who will exercise a huge amount of control over them and the relationship. Even if the relationship is violent or otherwise abusive, these women won't let go. They project Pluto's dark, controlling nature onto men and male authority figures.
This attraction to darkness is what makes your T-square such a dilemma. On the one side, Jupiter challenges your life force (Sun) to expand, but you may feel profound struggle with Jupiter's spiritual interests. On the other side, Pluto is the force of domination and control in your life, and vies with Jupiter. Jupiter represents fortune, benevolence and expansion and also symbolizes the good that may come from religious or spiritual devotion. Meanwhile, Pluto's compelling, dominant character lures you to narrow yourself and your life in submission to a controlling partner. To say that Jupiter represents light and growth while Pluto represents darkness and destruction is to draw unfortunate stereotypes, yet the caricature has some value nonetheless. The challenge of this T-square is to choose a direction between Jupiter and Pluto, accepting some qualities of each planet's influence. Directly opposite your Sun is the ninth house. If you focus on its interests and values, you will find a productive way to resolve the conflict between Pluto and Jupiter, bringing them into harmony for yourself.
The ninth house is concerned with higher values, with the world beyond the local and ordinary place of daily life. Higher education, travel abroad, religion and the law are some of the things that pertain to the ninth house. Your ninth house has Aquarius on the cusp, indicating that, for you, the ninth house matters have a deeply humanitarian involvement. If you focus in this direction in your life, out of your self-preoccupation and towards benevolent, humanitarian activity, you may be able to diminish the most limiting aspects of the T-square.
You also have a grand fire trine in your chart, between the Moon, Uranus and Jupiter. Uranus is in Capricorn, but is still within orb to trine the other planets. This trine may be a source of difficulty for you because, while it probably feels wonderful to have Jupiter's expansive qualities and Uranus' rebelliousness feed into your Moon's fundamental need to be loved and honoured like royalty, neither of those planets will encourage your Moon to take stock of your life and come down to earth. After all, you have almost no earth in your horoscope and the little you do have is in Neptune—the planet of illusion! Jupiter and Uranus, here, may encourage you to feel falsely entitled to the devotion your Moon desires, expecting it to come to you as a matter of course. This can lead to disappointment, bewilderment and depression.
This grand trine literally hooks into your T-square since Jupiter is in both formations. I suspect that when you're feeling a sense of struggle between Jupiter, the Sun and Pluto, you're likely to escape into the grand trine's endless loop of ego reinforcement. But just because the energies in that trine are comfortable for you doesn't mean that they will accomplish what you need in your life unless you can direct yourself toward something that both you and others will value, something that takes you outside of yourself and your own ego.
You've asked about career options. I suggest that you consider higher education of some kind. You've noted that your English language skills aren't as good as you need them to be. Perhaps it would be best for you to devote yourself to some rigorous study so that you can become completely, accurately fluent in English. Not only will this be a fabulous skill for you, but pursuing “perfect” English will generate a lot of positive feedback for you from others. Our language is complicated, idiosyncratic and ridiculous in many ways. Most native English speakers have enormous admiration for those who take the time and make the effort to learn our language and who speak it accurately. We know how difficult it is to do it. I think you'll find that you gain a lot of respect for mastering the language and then using your skill in some way to help others.