sweetnovember
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Hi all.
I am currently going through one of the worst transits I have ever experienced. Neptune in Pisces at 22° in the 8th is squaring my natal Saturn in Gemini at 22° in the 11th house.
I have never felt more lost, confused, let down, utterly hopeless than I do now. I feel like I’m letting everyone down, simply a shell of the person I used to be. I feel like people see and notice this about me but don’t say anything. My life feels so fictional and I want nothing more than to feel at home, by myself, away from the world. I just am not the same me I used to be. I cry every day, something I never did before. It’s so easy for me to get consumed in my emotions relating to anything, my home, my family, my job, my friends. Everything is just a shitshow.
Has anyone experienced this before? Does it fade when it separates? I’ve never been in such a dark spot before. Neptune is 4 degrees away from making a transiting conjunction to my Sun and Mercury, also in the 8th house. I fear that the worst is yet to come. I’ve always felt Neptune’s presence in my life but I feel like I am not ready for the best several years.
Please, if anyone has had experience with Neptune squares, let me know that I’m not alone. I have never felt more isolated in my life. I just want this to stop. Neptune is exactly squaring Saturn as I write this, at 22’44°.
Here is my chart for any interested: https://imgur.com/a/1e38Wpw
I am currently going through one of the worst transits I have ever experienced. Neptune in Pisces at 22° in the 8th is squaring my natal Saturn in Gemini at 22° in the 11th house.
I have never felt more lost, confused, let down, utterly hopeless than I do now. I feel like I’m letting everyone down, simply a shell of the person I used to be. I feel like people see and notice this about me but don’t say anything. My life feels so fictional and I want nothing more than to feel at home, by myself, away from the world. I just am not the same me I used to be. I cry every day, something I never did before. It’s so easy for me to get consumed in my emotions relating to anything, my home, my family, my job, my friends. Everything is just a shitshow.
Has anyone experienced this before? Does it fade when it separates? I’ve never been in such a dark spot before. Neptune is 4 degrees away from making a transiting conjunction to my Sun and Mercury, also in the 8th house. I fear that the worst is yet to come. I’ve always felt Neptune’s presence in my life but I feel like I am not ready for the best several years.
Please, if anyone has had experience with Neptune squares, let me know that I’m not alone. I have never felt more isolated in my life. I just want this to stop. Neptune is exactly squaring Saturn as I write this, at 22’44°.
Here is my chart for any interested: https://imgur.com/a/1e38Wpw