AtlantikaZany
Banned
Me and my fiancé of almost or about ten years give or take recently separated. We ended things amicably though. We do still talk because we sort of have to. But then I ended up getting mixed up with a guy who ended up being obsessive, jealous, and extremely controlling. It was completely toxic because of how manipulative he was...we talked 24/7 but we never even met! It's crazy how bad it was even when it wasn't even physical. It was so **** strange the effect we had on each other so strongly without even meeting yet.
Then I discovered that he somehow knew where I lived and knew my whereabouts, even online. I even tested it by creating a few new accounts on a few dating apps and he would find me and bully me to leave. It was crazy. I discovered his prison background. He did tell me he had been to prison but not to the extent that it was. I discovered some really horrible things. His capability for crime and danger had me very afraid. That isn't me...I'm not a fearful person but he had me so terrified of him I couldn't even think straight...I really believe if I had met him, things would have gotten out of control and one of us (most likely me) would have gotten hurt.
So I cut off all contact with him finally...I tried twice before but he would suck me back in. This time I finally have once and for all. I had to jump off that train heading to destruction. It wasn't easy because I was swept up in the delusional and toxic state; but now that I have, I see everything that was going on. Theres still a lot I don't know or that I'm confused about. The things he's said to me, revealed to me, makes me think that he had been patrolling me for awhile, scoping me out, before we even started talking. He's admitted to me he has pretended to be other people online to talk to me to 'test' me. I told him about my previous stalking incidences and he said to me it was him, although now I'm thinking maybe he just said that to spark fear in me...I'm not sure.
I've learned a lot more not to be so naive. I don't feel he will hurt me now that I've cut him off, but I do feel that if I had gone further, he most definitely would have. I feel so much better now and I can actually breathe! It was literally sucking me dry and I had nightmares every night if I even got sleep. It felt like I was on drugs and I don't even do drugs! It was so insane. Good riddance to all of that!
Thanks for letting me rant even though it was all over the place.
Then I discovered that he somehow knew where I lived and knew my whereabouts, even online. I even tested it by creating a few new accounts on a few dating apps and he would find me and bully me to leave. It was crazy. I discovered his prison background. He did tell me he had been to prison but not to the extent that it was. I discovered some really horrible things. His capability for crime and danger had me very afraid. That isn't me...I'm not a fearful person but he had me so terrified of him I couldn't even think straight...I really believe if I had met him, things would have gotten out of control and one of us (most likely me) would have gotten hurt.
So I cut off all contact with him finally...I tried twice before but he would suck me back in. This time I finally have once and for all. I had to jump off that train heading to destruction. It wasn't easy because I was swept up in the delusional and toxic state; but now that I have, I see everything that was going on. Theres still a lot I don't know or that I'm confused about. The things he's said to me, revealed to me, makes me think that he had been patrolling me for awhile, scoping me out, before we even started talking. He's admitted to me he has pretended to be other people online to talk to me to 'test' me. I told him about my previous stalking incidences and he said to me it was him, although now I'm thinking maybe he just said that to spark fear in me...I'm not sure.
I've learned a lot more not to be so naive. I don't feel he will hurt me now that I've cut him off, but I do feel that if I had gone further, he most definitely would have. I feel so much better now and I can actually breathe! It was literally sucking me dry and I had nightmares every night if I even got sleep. It felt like I was on drugs and I don't even do drugs! It was so insane. Good riddance to all of that!
Thanks for letting me rant even though it was all over the place.
----anyone who does that is dangerous because he is trying to scare you, to hurt you, to be in control of you. That is WRONG. 
