Himanshul:
I will first make some comments about your soul map and plans in this life.
Then make some comments about you and your father.
Your North Node, your soul purpose for this life, is in the first house. So you have a 1/7 nodal axis. These are also your widest houses, meaning that the lesson is most important in this life.
In past lives you have been too focused on other people and their needs. In this life you are meant to develop your self as a separate individual. In this life you are meant to balance the needs of self with the needs of others. In past lives you have sold yourself down the river, neglected you for the sake of others. And in this life you appear to be doing the same thing.
It is important to change old karmic patterns so that you can move forward as a soul.
You also have a 12house Neptune. This is one of the most challenging karmic placements. This is a soul who has trouble feeling at home during an earthly incarnation, and has trouble acclimating to life on the earth plane. This soul then tends to escape via addictive behavior, or becoming a victim/martyr/savior, sacrificing self for others. There is a lack of boundaries and a merging with others. It is important that you learn to set boundaries, see your self as a unique individual in your own right, and that you focus on your soul journey, not others.
Neptune is part of a Capricorn stellium, which emphasizes your scapegoat tendency and a need to control others. You do have the energy to let go of this, and to be more practical and less escapist. Your Virgo Sun gives you some good energy to be practical, and be of service to others, but it must not be in a victim or martyr way.
Cancer in the 6th house gives you a strong sense of guilt, also reinforces a need to control others. Chiron located there is showing us a deep karmic trauma around early childhood or home. This coincides with the 12h Neptune, the soul not feeling at home when at home. This is also showing us a wounded or wounded parent. The most critical piece of a Cancer Chiron is letting go and finding an inner home. This Cancer placement tends to hang on in symbiotic fashion which impedes soul growth.
I assumed prior to reading your chart, that I would find direct and recent karmic markers between you and your father. However this was not the case, so it is appearing that the issues you are having with your father are more about you and your own personal issues. In your chart, your father is placed in your 8th house. This is the house of birth, re-birth, regeneration and different levels of consciousness. The sun is conjunct mars in Virgo. You seem to be fixated and focused in an obsessive way with your father’s rebirth and regeneration.
You do have the energy to be pragmatic, to let go of being a victim and savior. You are living old karmic patterns that must be changed in order for you to work on your own Moksha, not the Moksha of others.
Julia