You can be blunt I don't mind at all
Thanks for the feed back! So being blunt—the poor and abusive relationships are due to your sense of self-worth or poor sense of self. There are esteem issues. There's the "
lack of developing healthy relationships and being able to have complete intimacy," as previously mentioned. It goes without saying that you can't really have that true intimacy in an abusive relationship because of the negativity involved and power dynamics.
Also, you stuck in them too long because your partner's are controlling, and that's in large part because of
in your chart.
I don't have your chart up at the moment ...
Oh! I almost forgot. To your question of whether I was referring to your
/
aspect. Your post was interesting because one of my last posts was on this subject. I had, at one point, been doing studies on various statistical instances of astrological phenomena, and I thought it would be interesting if homosexuality could be determined in a chart. So I copied from that post what I had written, and I'll post it here:
Here are the bare bone, most rudimentary markers that you will find in charts of people who are filomofylía:
There will be either one or both of these aspects to
• There is an aspect from
to
, usually a
or
but not always.
• There is an aspect from
to
.
• There is an aspect to
from both
and
(frequently)
• And when
or
does not directly aspect
, either will do so by means of a complex.
There will also be aspects of
to
in some form:
•
•
•
Also, there will almost always be an excess of negative polarities in the chart.
I think if I do leave a relationship it's because there isn't real intimacy or the level of authenticity I'd like. That, or to put it frankly I had to leave some relationships because they were abusive.
Yes. That will be in large part due to (1) your impulsiveness in relationships, and (2) because of, well, it's two fold because I can look at in two ways, from a psychological and from a material point of view. The psychological is due to poor feelings of self-worth, which can be worked on. The other, the actual, when tends to take on more of a deterministic aspect, is that you will tend to enter relationships that are controlling. There is a lot of fear mixed in with your love, too. And a lot of changeability and changing of situations within the relationships, that there will be drama, lots of highs and lows.
You are right that I'd rather be single than in a in a relationship "not on my terms" but I'm also too accepting of anyone's faults.
That's the "fear of reaction." The fear of rejection is sometimes expressed as not letting go because letting go or leaving the situation resembled rejection in some ways. Fear of rejection is fear of being alone, in many situations.
I am very loyal and if anything...I tend to stay too long with people who are wrong for me.
Yes. I bet you are. But you also don't like a boring relationship. And I mean boring in the sense that you are bored if things do not have a crisis point every so often.
I'm navigating a balance between high standards that keep me safe from abuse and real deep connections that are meaningful.
Always go for safe to avoid injury, psychological or otherwise.
I think women and men both pose thier own issues for me. You are probably referring to my Moon Venus aspects? Still, what I'm curious us what the dynamic in pros and cons would be for me if I do date women?
With women, I can see a competitiveness with women, with an older woman. An older woman would be one that understands you and would help you feel comfortable. But in the same sense, would also feel controlling. But you'll rebel, which will help create a crisis situation, which in turn will make sure it won't be boring. She'll also be a loner, independent.
That is the truth seeking question here.
I hope that rings true, and I hope that helps!
P.S. I think you will find that you are more strongly attracted to men. However, as you can see, you have clear cut markers for variation in sexual preference. That's why I responded.