freedomlover
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As much as I've studied my chart, I've never been able to get a good grasp on what the meaning of my North Node is. Nothing that I've read has really struck me personally as being what it signified for me. My South Node, I get. Even people that read my chart usually concentrate on the South Node, because it is conjunct my Sun. From my understanding of the South Node, it can show a gift that you naturally have, having developed it in past lives. But it is actually holding you back sometimes. So you need to move past that and into a new level, new gifts, etc, that will bring you into your destiny. Or something to that affect. (If anyone has any clearer explanation on the Nodes, I'd love to hear it.)
Anyway, teaching, intellectualism, religion - all the things associated with the South Node in Sag/11th - been there, done that, and bought the t-shirt. I can do it in my sleep. However, it is really depressing, strange as that may seem. I know it's not what will bring me happiness now - at least not at this stage in my life. It may be reintegrated later. I just can't see how utilizing these qualities is helping me at this juncture. Even my learning problems I'm currently having.... perhaps this is a big "HELLO!" from the Universe telling me that I'm not to keep pursuing developing these talents at this time. I've had psychics tell me that I'm supposed to be doing spiritual teaching. I know this is so, at some point, but if it's for now, why is the thought of it so depressing? I've also spent two past lives as a Buddhist monk. (This was told me by a psychic several years ago, but I've seen some scenes from this in my dreams, as well.) The talent is definitely there, BUT...........
So, all that being said, what could my illusive North Node in Gemini in the 5th mean for me?
Also, to add another slant to this, quoting what Starnoud taught me about the Dragon and the Beast:
Dragon is 90* from NN - same degree. This is where you meet yourself, where you are fighting yourself for nothing. This for me would be 4* Virgo/8th, with Leo on cusp.
Beast is opposite Dragon. This is how you live your heart's desires. Feed the beast, so you will get energy. The Beast is exactly conjunct my Part of Fortune at 4* Pisces/2nd, with Aquarius on the cusp. (For you asteroid junkies, the asteroid Gaea is exactly conjunct Beast/POF at 4* Pisces)
The 4* Pisces point is another illusive point for me. I have no good grasp of what my True Node and Part of Fortune mean for me.
So my NN/SN are in a T-square with my Part of Fortune.
Any suggestions?
Anyway, teaching, intellectualism, religion - all the things associated with the South Node in Sag/11th - been there, done that, and bought the t-shirt. I can do it in my sleep. However, it is really depressing, strange as that may seem. I know it's not what will bring me happiness now - at least not at this stage in my life. It may be reintegrated later. I just can't see how utilizing these qualities is helping me at this juncture. Even my learning problems I'm currently having.... perhaps this is a big "HELLO!" from the Universe telling me that I'm not to keep pursuing developing these talents at this time. I've had psychics tell me that I'm supposed to be doing spiritual teaching. I know this is so, at some point, but if it's for now, why is the thought of it so depressing? I've also spent two past lives as a Buddhist monk. (This was told me by a psychic several years ago, but I've seen some scenes from this in my dreams, as well.) The talent is definitely there, BUT...........
So, all that being said, what could my illusive North Node in Gemini in the 5th mean for me?
Also, to add another slant to this, quoting what Starnoud taught me about the Dragon and the Beast:
Dragon is 90* from NN - same degree. This is where you meet yourself, where you are fighting yourself for nothing. This for me would be 4* Virgo/8th, with Leo on cusp.
Beast is opposite Dragon. This is how you live your heart's desires. Feed the beast, so you will get energy. The Beast is exactly conjunct my Part of Fortune at 4* Pisces/2nd, with Aquarius on the cusp. (For you asteroid junkies, the asteroid Gaea is exactly conjunct Beast/POF at 4* Pisces)
The 4* Pisces point is another illusive point for me. I have no good grasp of what my True Node and Part of Fortune mean for me.
So my NN/SN are in a T-square with my Part of Fortune.
Any suggestions?