Hi to everyone, I am so dessesperate about finding why all this things happened to me. I am so tired of myself rigth now, when I was a child, in my primary school, I had a classroom mate that touched me many times, and forced me to kiss him and do other things, in my childhood neighborhood also was other person that forced me as well, but sometimes we did it because we both wanted it, and this kind of things made me grow as a teenager that couldnt afirm its sexuality well and make healthy friends and relationships during my growing. In my secondary school, again, couldnt relate well to people and suffered bullying, because like I couldnt make friends of my gender, people use to insult me as a sissy, gay or a dumb person and I went mostly to the classrooms, to sleep. I ended high school to the worst way, because I had no friend and no promotion, I didnt wanted to be there. Like in 2009, I met this guy, he was a Libra, he hurted me so much you guys cant imagine!!, but we were also really true true friends! I think we both fell in love with each other, or maybe I was confused about the relationship we had, like we were in the pool and he was touching me or hugging me, but at 15 I think I was really innocent to understand that( Maybe I didnt grow emotionally enough) or like we both spend our time all days and all weekends with other friend and we were inseparables!! and one day he told me that he loved me, but I ignored it and i think he got tired to try to win a gay relationship or maybe was so bad because of what people were going to think about us!! and he was also a soccer player so that was another point for not accepting our thing. So ony day after 2 years of hidding my feelings, I tolf him the worst way I could my feelings, by facebook, and he told me was my friend and he diddnt know what to think, etc then my mom found out this and didnt let him watch me again, and we started insulting ourselves, because he forgot me and I was obssesed with him so much that he hurted my feeling really bad at the point I wanted to kill my self seriously!1 :¨( He had his Sun in my 4th, His Moon in Libra in my 5th, His Venus in Libra in my 5th, and his Jupiter in sag in my 7vth, how perfect wouldnt it be? Bad thing, his Mars in scorpio conjuncting of my Venus in scorpio( regent of fifth love house) . Now Ive got no friends and this person told my neighborhood friends about my sexual preference, and I even dont know if I am gay, straigth or bi, Im confused rigth now. Im actually at the university because my mom forced me to enter, and Im stressed, with cronical anxiety, Ive been going to the psychologist, but I think d¿they dont really understand at the 100% my problems, had soft depression, obsessive thougths, phobias, hated myself, bad- self -steem, I really thougth to kill myself, and for topping it!: I have a bad relationship with my family, the best with my mom, I love her, but sometimes she cant really understand me, it feels horrible!! So I needed to see in what way I could explain these facts and then I thougth Astrology!!.. I am so appreciated that you guys took your precious time To read this and would like to hear your opinions about my chart, I know little of astrology of what ive been researching and I would like to see if there is some problem here or maybe God send me with this pathethic and suffered life, I know there are other people worst than me, but my inner suffering is big . And if there is something good.. Maybe the good thing about myself is that... I dont know I feel so bad rigth know.. I hope you can say me something, I have Mars in opposition to Saturn and Moon opposition Uranus, this bad aspects i see :/ THANK YOU SO MUCH. take care and I hope you can let me see why I am LIKE THIS and IF there is a Hope that i cant get rid off my emotional anxiety and my bad luck in relationships and bad sel-esteem . Thanks again!
Here is my natal chart:
Here is my natal chart:
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