LeoCassandra
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Saturn is important planet in my natal chart. It rules my North Node, it rules my Moon. Ruler of Saturn is in Aquarius which ruler in traditional astrology is Saturn. My Sun (beside conjunction whith Chiron) is making only one aspect which is opposition to Saturn, and my natal Sun is the 10th house. Since Saturn crossed my Nadir i started to think more often about my inner need to start a family. However when i close my eyes i dont really see children and a partner. From year 2008 i suffer from few ilness that are affecting my apperance and as a typical Virgo Venus (not to mention vain Libra ASC and proud Leo Sun), i don't want to lower my standards when it comes to chosing a partner i rather be alone, or i used to think that. Now that my health got a little bit better and because i turned this year 30 i came to understanding that in the end i would like to start a family on my own, but i'm afriad that i wont happend, well i almost sure. I know it's egoistical to want something from world, when there is so much suffering out there. I would like to feel loved, to feel warmth form someone, well i suppose we all would like it... My Venus and Moon are in fall and detriment. Venus is also touched by Mars. My 4th house is in Capricorn, 5th house is in Aqua, Ruler of 5th house in Capricorn in conjunction with wicked Lilith. It's not looking good. But will it be time in my life that a will feel happy?