ja, dear Pisces13, i read the threads, as i said before...
Not that i underestimate your problem.
And i see this more often than you might think.
You are 22, this is not an easy age to socialize - as one should think - a lot of young people struggle, while to the outside they act as they are happy and everything is fine. But behind the fassade they feel shy and not welcome and unable to get conntected.
- Life brings changes. but not just so.
usually it needs insight and a very open mind, - since it's the hardest thing to see yourself and see your talents and the darker colors on the palette.
So i'd say open your mind, spend interest on sports, on books and music and fine arts, fill your heart with what the world offers, - don't focus on yourself. Then, by time, change will come.
And be sure, - many people feel the same way.
Again, see how many people here talk to you, pay attention and give their time to you, - isn't that already lovely and a proof how connected you are here? - Does it warm your heart? Do you feel the "gift" in that?
I hope so. and i wish the best for you.