TaurusScorpioLady
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I'm 27 years old, female whose longest relationship has been 3 months. I can't seem to open myself emotionally or give up control in any aspects of my life. I try but I just can't let go of my control? My control has been a defense mechanism from an abusive and neglectful childhood. I thrive on control and sometimes I control other peoples minds/actions (especially men) - although, I try not to do this often because I know it's wrong. I have high principles so I don't play with peoples feelings etc. I know wrong from right. But just so you understand that level of control I am talking about, I cant even orgasm because I can't lose my control. I looked up my chart in astrodienst and it seems that everything seems to talk about aggression, control, or assertiveness. How can I learn to just let go? Why do I hate feelings vulnerable and weak? I'm also super egoistic that I would never ask for help. I think it's all the extreme conflicts in my chart. If I go for therapy, I cant be totally honest and subconsciously, I start to control the conversation/outcome of the session.
I know exactly what they are thinking, etc. I do that with a lot of people around me excluding my family whom I have no patience for.
Please see my chart and give me any advice that might be useful in creating a more honest, open and less controlled personality.
I know exactly what they are thinking, etc. I do that with a lot of people around me excluding my family whom I have no patience for.
Please see my chart and give me any advice that might be useful in creating a more honest, open and less controlled personality.