kennedyrosewhith
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Lately i've had Neptune squaring my Ascendant. This is the third and last time it will make this aspect, so the aspect itself is not new, but the issues are.
Backstory (if you're not interested, there's a question at the end of the post):
I feel like i've hit a brick wall in several aspects of my life, and i feel lost on where i'm heading next. I have two main issues that i'm trying to deal with and sort out right now. The first one is that i'm making plans to attend school full-time overseas in the fall, and i've been wanting to do this for years. I'm nervous about this one because of a lack of money and so i'm not entirely sure yet how this will work. The second one is that i'm also tentatively making plans to undergo a gender/sex transition while i'm at school. I feel lost about this because i've been trying to run away from this problem for months now, and now i'm finally facing it and dealing with it but... well first off, i don't want to and i don't know how to stop running. Second, it feels like i should be having a new beginning with my life, but there was never an ending to what's happened before. What i mean is, i've spent the past 7 or 8 months of my life dealing with needing to transition (or not dealing with it), and having most of my thoughts consumed with that, and now i have to actually make plans and commit to doing things. It feels like the state of mind and body i've been in for the past several months should be done with and i should be able to move onto new things, but it's not. If i'm lucky and plan right, it'll be another two years *at least* before this is all done with. And everything is all up in the air right now, regarding how it'll work out. I have no idea what i'll be doing in the fall, what country i'll be living in, or even who i'll be. My chart with transits is attached to this post for the visual people.
I'm not entirely optimistic that there's an easy solution, but people who have had trouble with Neptune transits, was there anything you found that helped you get through it?
Backstory (if you're not interested, there's a question at the end of the post):
I feel like i've hit a brick wall in several aspects of my life, and i feel lost on where i'm heading next. I have two main issues that i'm trying to deal with and sort out right now. The first one is that i'm making plans to attend school full-time overseas in the fall, and i've been wanting to do this for years. I'm nervous about this one because of a lack of money and so i'm not entirely sure yet how this will work. The second one is that i'm also tentatively making plans to undergo a gender/sex transition while i'm at school. I feel lost about this because i've been trying to run away from this problem for months now, and now i'm finally facing it and dealing with it but... well first off, i don't want to and i don't know how to stop running. Second, it feels like i should be having a new beginning with my life, but there was never an ending to what's happened before. What i mean is, i've spent the past 7 or 8 months of my life dealing with needing to transition (or not dealing with it), and having most of my thoughts consumed with that, and now i have to actually make plans and commit to doing things. It feels like the state of mind and body i've been in for the past several months should be done with and i should be able to move onto new things, but it's not. If i'm lucky and plan right, it'll be another two years *at least* before this is all done with. And everything is all up in the air right now, regarding how it'll work out. I have no idea what i'll be doing in the fall, what country i'll be living in, or even who i'll be. My chart with transits is attached to this post for the visual people.
I'm not entirely optimistic that there's an easy solution, but people who have had trouble with Neptune transits, was there anything you found that helped you get through it?