Here's my reply to your latest post in your horary thread. I'm putting it here because it deals with your natal chart instead of the horary.
No wonder you've never had a boyfriend. Jobs are no way to find dating partners. There's too much conflict of interest for that. Especially if you keep falling for managers, bosses, people in your chain of command.
Firstly, thank you for reading my natal chart, Osa. Nobody has done that for me to the degree that you had.
I was actually quite surprised to hear you say that jobs are no way to find a romantic partner. I had always thought that it was
the way. I mean, if a guy has a job, that means he is not on public assistance. That he can hold down a job. So, he is not a "loser", in that sense. It's just a good way to weed out the bad ones, is how I always saw it. And as for falling for bosses, managers etc, I actually don't go out of my way to do that, it kind of just naturally happens for me a lot, because the managerial types typically have good interpersonal skills, and that to me is attractive.
And when you say conflict of interest, what do you mean by that? Do you mean that men (especially bosses) might think that going out with a coworker is risky because if it doesn't work out, it will make working with her very awkward?
With so much going on in your sixth house, you may be tempted to look for love in your working life. But your Mercury is in your fifth house. That suggests finding a partner through something you're just doing for enjoyment.
Since Leo is your sixth sign, and you have the bulk of your placements there, I'm inclined to read it as a need to turn a hobby into a job. Do you have any hobbies that could become a job? Define "hobby" very broadly. It doesn't necessarily have to be something that most people would consider a hobby. It can be anything you've developed some skill at because you wanted to do it, not because you had to.
Well, I really enjoy posting on online forums and talking to people from all over the world. This is my biggest hobby. I also enjoy reading, writing and learning English, however these are all very solitary pursuits. They don't help me find guys. I am not the type to go clubbing or hang out at bars, so these options are out, too. I sometimes play computer games but truth be told, I dont really want a gamer as a boyfriend. Of course, not all gamers are nerdy or lack social skills, however I just can't quite get past it. I would want someone who is relatively "normal".
You probably do need someone who shares your life's work. That's a message of this house placement. But that doesn't mean work as in the job you took to pay your bills. That means true vocation. What is your real calling? What service can you give to society, from your own being? Your chart suggests looking to what you enjoy as the first step to answering that question.
I actually want to build a website of my own, one that has a forum just like this one. I guess you can call that a true vocation. But even if it does happen, I kind of doubt that it would lead to anything, because uprooting my life and moving to a faraway place just for a crush, is not very practical. I still want to have my own site and forum though, because I find that people who post on message boards tend to be very intelligent (you being one of them, Osa). They also tend to be really unique, one-of-a-kind, and this is highly attractive to me.
Funny you should mention service. I am actually very big on being of service to others. I tend to base my sense of self-worth on how much help I can be to people. Very spot-on, Osa.
"And yes, with a mask on, it is very difficult indeed to smile at someone!"
Sorry, but you can see a smile through the eyes!
That is true, Elena.
The bolded parts in particular concern me. Are you 100% sure that someone quit because you made them uncomfortable? Did you hear them admitting that? If that's definitely the case, then I would look at how you're behaving around someone for them to actually go out of their way leave a job just because of one person. It may be a case of coming on too strong or coming across as creepy.
There is also a danger in trying too hard. It's not supposed to be like that. This can cause the above issues if you are trying hard, because it means you are giving off an air of desperation and being too available, which can repel. I'm of the belief that guys in general prefer to be the chasers, and they don't want the woman to be too ready to fall into his lap. The easier you get something, the less you tend to value it.
I guess, without seeing how you are in real life, it's hard to make certain determinations. I'm not meaning to say you're definitely creepy or anything, so apologies if I came across as harsh, I'm just suggesting what might be the case based on the above info.
I would try and get to the bottom of what drives you to be the way you are around guys you like, natal chart aside. Is it cause you feel you won't find anyone else ever and he's your only shot? Or feeling like you have a lack of self worth? Or something else entirely? If you work on building up your inner worth, recognising that you have valuable qualities to bring to a relationship and that you are worthy of being in a loving relationship just by virtue of being you, you may feel less of an urgency to try hard and jump at guys, because you'll feel more self-assurance.
No need to apologize, I am not offended. And what you said makes a lot of sense.
I am not sure why I tend to chase guys, I don't know if it's because I have low self-worth. It just kind of happens for me a lot. I guess I can say that, it is natural for me to want to talk to someone that I like. When I like a guy, my gut instinct is to talk to him, interact with him, and find out more about him. I don't know if I do this in a "creepy" way or not.
I think what you said about guys preferring to do the chasing makes a lot of sense. It's what I have read in books, too. Apparently, men are "hunters", and they like to "conquer", so to speak. They want the woman to put up some kind of resistance. I guess I need to act more demure, if I want to get a guy.