So going by what you ascribe to: "sign = houses = planets", do you notice that your (12th house) planets are in Virgo?It's not so much Neptune the planet that I feel I am affected by, but rather the 12th house. Truly, I wish I didn't have the experience of "sign = houses = planets," but the twelfth's influence in my life has felt very strong.
Or perhaps you are reading too much into the 12th house and ascribing too much to it.It's interesting, most of the other astrologers I've talked to have not understood why I feel so affected by the 12th.
Your challenge of "buying too much into negative feelings" or morbidity is not much due to 12th house planets, which are in Virgo, but due to your 8th house Moon, its square to Saturn (pessimistic and fearful) and its opposition to Pluto (dark and morbid). Also, Virgo has the tendency to over analyse things in its quest to look for details and also to be too critical. You do have Sun (basic being), Merc. (thinking/ability to analyse) and also your Asc. in Virgo.
Whatever you sayI absolutely agree with everything here. What you've described re: my challenges is pretty spot-on.
I've always, however, been ungrounded and not "earthy" in the least. I feel as though I cannot connect to the physical realm. This is really where my confusion about my chart comes from.
Neptune entered Pisces in Feb. 2012. But it entered Pisces for all of us. However, in your particular case, its energy is opposing all your *personal* Virgoan planets. In my case, for instance, I have zero planets in Virgo.You mean Neptune's transit through my 6th house? This 12th house sort of experience has been going on since before that began.
If I go back to when I feel it REALLY first started though - almost 11 years ago - Uranus was transiting my 6th house. Around that time transiting Pluto was also squaring my natal 12th house planets. Then there was Saturn's transit through the 12th for a few years. I don't know, do you really think this is all due to transits? It sure seems to be a longgg *** horrible punishment! I'm kind of joking, as I don't really feel as though these things are "punishments."
Neptune & Pisces are my #2 influences according to Pullen, so obviously I'm sensitive. I try not to absorb/internalize too much, but it takes a lot of work for me to create boundaries and be grounded. I barely even know how, those things just don't come naturally to me. I end up overeating at times due to my lack of proper boundaries and a buildup of negative/painful emotions. I'll be honest, this is the real reason I am upset (the overeating). With Virgo as my #1 influence, I absolutely cannot function when I lose control over myself.
"I end up overeating at times due to my lack of proper boundaries and"
The overeating part has nothing to do with those Virgo planets in the 12th house or Neptune. It has everything to do with the Taurus Moon (feel-good factor at all costs, and through food basically) in the 8th and Venus in Libra (balance what you lack)
"a buildup of negative/painful emotions."
We have already discussed how Moon in the 8th and Saturn-Moon contributes enough to that.
Thank you. This has given me the clarity I was looking for. I now see that the balance of Virgo in the 12th house is just that -- balance.
This, especially, hits close to home: "feel-good factor at all costs, and through food basically." While I generally consider myself to be disciplined and not interested in seeking out pleasure through the senses, this is a deep sort of ingrained pattern that I feel I have very little control over. But, I do believe that I can figure it out and move beyond it.
I'm really glad that I finally understand this from an astrological point of view (and feel kind of dumb for not getting it sooner)! My boyfriend has been trying to make me see this for while. He doesn't know anything about astrology, but he says that my problem stems from thinking that I must always feel "good"/be happy -- which in turn comes from my mother brainwashing me; I think she was terrified of feeling 'negative' emotions, and thus did everything she could to discourage me from the same.
I sort of wish I could change the name of this thread now since Neptune isn't to blame