Hello Rahu and thank you for taking the time to write such an in depth and thorough response!
You really hit the nail on the head for me! Especially the fact that I am friendly and sociable with others but keep a large part of myself hidden. I feel like there is this whole different aspect of my personality that no one ever sees. And even when I try to explain myself to others, I either confuse them when I bring it up or they just blow off what I'm saying. I have come to terms with the fact that some thoughts and feelings are just for me and it doesn't have to be understood or accepted by anyone. And that can be very nice and at the same time a little lonely.
Spirituality has become a big focus in my life these last couple of years, especially lately. I've always felt vibes from people and I consider myself to be empathic. I get drained by people, especially some family members. I've had a few experiences of ego death, if that makes any sense. An awakening, I guess you could call it. And since then, I see life differently and I am on this journey to get to the root of myself and am finding that at the end of me is the beginning of life itself.
Lol but enough of my crazy babble! Thank you for the great interpretation. My goal is to be my highest self and astrology is helping to show me what to work on. So all information that I get is putting me closer to the right direction.
If per chance you read this and aren't bored with my chart yet, I have an unrelated, career question. What career potential does it show in my chart? Any particular field or skill I should focus in on? I'm already a nurse and I find it highly draining. Thank you!!!
thanks for your feedback... I did hold back a
little because as you know not all people can deal with
alternate planes etc...
I've always felt vibes from people and I consider myself to be empathic. I get drained by people, especially some family members.
I think this is part of your sun/node and moon/south node aspect. your aura and felt by others and your auric energies are drained, likely unconsciously, by others.
I've had a few experiences of ego death, if that makes any sense.
this experience likely a function or your Uranus/Pluto midpoint conjunct your Lilith as Uranus is the energy of the astral path and pluto is the symbol of death and rebirth. the vertex is the plane of all cosmic energies associated with consciousness our sun/earth plane as well as universal consciousness. though the vertex is source of our conscious and unconscious planes, so much of the energies of the vertex are not directly comprehensible to us as the vertex encompasses the greater universal planes .
as a consequence the vertex can bring inchoate impression ,visions and experiences that can confuse, awe or instruct us.
so you combination of Pluto and Uranus on the vertex gives you near death/ego death encounters .
What career potential does it show in my chart? Any particular field or skill I should focus in on? I'm already a nurse and I find it highly draining. Thank you!
I am not the best on vocational observations but I consider your chart .but I notice that your mercury at 5auar58 and will soon be transited exactly by the south node on june28 thru july 9 as the south node will form a station on your mercury and the south node will stay within 10 minutes of exact til aug25. this is length of time for the transit is very unusual and extremely intense. this is a time for extreme psychic and mental power. your creativity and mental imagery will be unsurpassed .this is an aspect of magic, meaning that your thought forms will be able to create reality the around you. but the south node can be used for black magic so you will attract negative force in this period. it is very important to keep your thought in the light because if your lower desires lead you, you may lose control.
you future course should be obvious to you in this period. and remember your thought will make what you need come true
rahu