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Hello all. First of all, I'd like to state that I am a female interested mostly in females (but have some guy tendencies sometimes, but like only 5% of the time). I am currently 23 years old, and I seem to notice a problem with my love affairs.
For starters, I don't have a problem attracting a person (in this case, a girl). Without sounding full of myself, I have been told that I am reasonably attractive, "brilliant" and with an appealing personality.
For the past two years now, the girls that I attract are becoming steadily younger and younger and this is causing me to worry a bit. I am a Capricorn Mooner, so I was kind of expecting that I would attract older person? However, much of the time I seem to attract younger girls and I'm suspecting this is because of my heavy Mercurial energy (correct me if I'm wrong).
Now, I don't have a problem attracting younger girls. My problem is these girls seem to like to keep their feelings for me a "secret." And they refer to me as being "special" to them, like a special friend or something, and I can't help but to feel as though they actually mean, "I have romantic feelings for you, but I choose not to acknowledge them." You may ask, how do I know that they are indeed romantic feelings? Well, for one, much of the time I catch them glancing at me from my peripheral vision and these aren't just accidental glances because they occur at least 10 times (yes, I keep count, lmfao). Another reason is because of their receptivity towards me. I flirt with them, openly. They may blush or flirt back, openly as well. Lastly, and this is probably the strongest indicator, is that they talk about me to their friends. I am a bit of a social butterfly (Gemini here, haha), and so news get to me pretty fast, and it's always like, I here so and so say this about me.
These are all good, right? But much of the time, they don't actually blatantly tell me about their feelings. They seem to stick around long after I have moved on to someone else, but I am always disappointed that no relationship ever materialized! I've been single for quite a while and I feel I'm in this state where I can finally handle a relationship, but I attract these girls who... probably aren't. The girls I attract seem to be born between 1993-1995 and I think this is because my Moon is conjuncting their Neptunes during those years and I hear that Moon/Neptune aspects indicate soulmate connection? Not sure.
So my question is... will I *continually* suffer from having girls harboring secret feelings for me and not ever having a relationship materialized? I have been transparent to these girls and they take it happily without ever confessing their own feelings. Haha, or perhaps they don't actually like me? Maybe it's because they're young? Haha. Help!
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