girlcat
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I began a relationship a few months back with a man i have been pining over for the past year. We dove right into the relationship and it has been moving along quickly. I have trust issues and find myself constantly testing him & his love for me, questioning its genuineness & creating drama only to realize in hindsight it was mostly, if not all me.
Last night felt like a "battle" that could break us. It left me storming out with all my luggage in tow at 4:30 in the morning (not the first time i've pulled this ****), i woke up today and the memories of the night prior felt like a nightmare and it kills me that i keep pushing him away and feel extremely difficult to love. I feel ashamed and humiliated for the way I behave and how unreasonable I become. I want to change before he realizes it's not worth all this drama.
I have a transit uranus opposite my sun coming up in a couple months, transit saturn will conjunct sun shortly after. I'm afraid this indicates a break or seperation, although I see immediately after the uranus transit, jupiter will be conjuncting my moon.
I love him dearly and find myself making the same mistakes that push others away from me in relationships and am determined not to make those same mistakes again with him.
So, I am sun in the 6th and he is uranus in the 8th. sun conjunt venus in aquarius opposite mars, trines saturn. chiron and neptune conjunct desendant. uranus makes no major aspects. moon conjunct ascendant (i've read this means the inquisitor was overly emotional while making the horary chart).
the way i see it (i'm a beginner) i am willing to work at it (H6, trines saturn) and am clearly not willing to end the relationship (conjunct venus), but i have hurt him badly (chiron, neptune conjunct desendant) that he mentally/emotionally has moved on (ruler in H8).
I have tried to contact him and he wants to give it a few days before we talk. I don't see any relationship breaks in his transits, although TOB is unknown. He is going through a transit saturn sextile venus, and i'm hoping he will be willing to work through this.
please help with interpretations, any and all insights welcome.
many thanks,
girlcat
Last night felt like a "battle" that could break us. It left me storming out with all my luggage in tow at 4:30 in the morning (not the first time i've pulled this ****), i woke up today and the memories of the night prior felt like a nightmare and it kills me that i keep pushing him away and feel extremely difficult to love. I feel ashamed and humiliated for the way I behave and how unreasonable I become. I want to change before he realizes it's not worth all this drama.
I have a transit uranus opposite my sun coming up in a couple months, transit saturn will conjunct sun shortly after. I'm afraid this indicates a break or seperation, although I see immediately after the uranus transit, jupiter will be conjuncting my moon.
I love him dearly and find myself making the same mistakes that push others away from me in relationships and am determined not to make those same mistakes again with him.
So, I am sun in the 6th and he is uranus in the 8th. sun conjunt venus in aquarius opposite mars, trines saturn. chiron and neptune conjunct desendant. uranus makes no major aspects. moon conjunct ascendant (i've read this means the inquisitor was overly emotional while making the horary chart).
the way i see it (i'm a beginner) i am willing to work at it (H6, trines saturn) and am clearly not willing to end the relationship (conjunct venus), but i have hurt him badly (chiron, neptune conjunct desendant) that he mentally/emotionally has moved on (ruler in H8).
I have tried to contact him and he wants to give it a few days before we talk. I don't see any relationship breaks in his transits, although TOB is unknown. He is going through a transit saturn sextile venus, and i'm hoping he will be willing to work through this.
please help with interpretations, any and all insights welcome.
many thanks,
girlcat