i found this topic of sexual sadism interesting, and have struggled with my violent tendancies towards sex myself.
i have read many interpretations of my chart and there has been mention of this type of behaviour, however i am interested in your views on my chart and if they coinside with my possible repressed sexual energy?
Hi,
As you didn't provide a town, I took central Wales as a coordinate. It provides a mid-Cancer Ascendant, which would be the case in whichever part you were born. This also produces an 8th house Sun in Aquarius which, at this time, is questionable. It might just slide into the 7th house of relationships.
I study astrology from the viewpoint that inner psychological development creates outer events.
You share a similar configuration to Sade, in that both Mars and Pluto are in their own signs. They quincunx (150 degr.) each other, an aspect of strain and tension. You also have Sun leading in a square with Pluto, and Moon leading in a semi-square Pluto, indicative that the plutonian energy lies deep within you. You need to be or to feel that you are in control (ask yourself WHY?) but have difficulty directing it. You could be a victim as well as assailant of violent behaviour but the need for control arises for the same reason.
Aquarius is the sign that detaches itself from emotional bonding in order to gain its independence of spirit. It can sometimes have or go to extreme or bizarre tendancies in order to do so. Moon in Sagittarius conjunct Uranus, modern ruler Aquarius, is not concerned with feelings of emotion rather than separating from them in order to become more objective. This could be difficult if everything one undergoes has to pass through the window of Cancer Ascendant that experiences personal hurt and pain so easily. Better to turn off feeling altogether, Black Moon Lilith in Cancer in 12th opposing Neptune, using the opposite sex as a vehicle/image for sexual satisfaction and release rather than expression of one's deepest caring emotions. If you are female, you can probably take yourself out of yourself, enacting a role as if you are not physically participating. If you are male, you seek the total submission of the feminine.......possibly even in yourself
. Again, the question is WHY !
I get the strong feeling of 'estrangement' and 'separation' from family early in life. As you are still very young, have shown an interest in astrology, there must be someone within you that is seeking answers to your behavious pattern. You might find counselling in which you can talk about yourself, your views, other people's effects upon you that influence what's going on inside YOU, of great help. Natal Chiron is in Gemini opposing Venus-Saturn. You withhold the positive giving of TRUE love and affection for some reason known only to yourself. This could suggest an inner wound/ pain in being unable to relate to people on an everyday level. Unravelling the reason for it will be very constructive in channeling your energies in a fashion that suit your life's purpose and not your sexual tendancies.
F.
