Hi Julia,
Thank you again for your friendly words!
This is one of the reasons I fell in love with astrology. It explained everything for me in terms of my inner functioning compared to others. And why I felt like a fish out of water for most of my life.
Yes, I too love astrology for that and because it taught me how we can be so different form one another, and nearly live in different worlds. Humanity is incredibly rich and complex from that perspective too, in a way that psychology or genetics don't approach... Can you imagine how an Aries or Leo Mercury processes information? I can't! I can of course put Mercury + Aries together in my thinking and come with "= this combo", but in real life, these people are too different. And it goes on and on for each and every planet, and house, and their aspects. It's really enriching. It also explains so well why we can enrich each other so well, when and if we have some ways to connect. And the opposite is true. It's teaching tolerence from another angle.
And why I felt like a fish out of water for most of my life.
Or like a fish in the ocean watching them on the dry shore?
I guess it's the same for you as or me? I feel at home with poetry and mysticim...
I had a dream this morning when i was told like, "by the way stop wondering and erring, Neptune Rising in your chart is your power/identity/strength". It was very clearcut and obvious. I took good note when I woke up.
I know Neptune is fantastic, but it is also not very easy. it's present transit on my IC is a bit weird. It's not really painful but it matches absolutely no social expection regarding MC and performance matters! I have no reference to simply accept wht it happening, all references say, move on, get more things done, need to shine.
my close friends are all air, fire or earth stelliums. It is so odd that way. But then they have one placement identical to mine, such as a Pisces Moon or Mars in Scorpio.
I think I need people that can help me not be too spaced out in ideals (my Aquarious Sun), mysticism, and empathy. I find squares boring, but I need them and appreciate them. I have very little fire in my chart, so i guess i need somebody else to complement me. Complementarity is a beautiful way to work too.
Mars in Scorpio sounds great. Must be very intense ? But the gentle Pisces Moon must ensure it's not harming but serving, right?
My rising Scorpio Neptune is trine my Pisces Mars, o they are in each other sign and seem to offer a lot. I love it, it's a very spiritual combo, though I sense I could use Mars more actively to make this trine more dynamic. I am not sure how to do that. One pb is the H4 mars --I am not a home body and not interested in home matters! The actual problem I guess is that Pisces Mars H4 is tightly opposed Rx Pluto H10.
Astrology tells me there is something crucial to work on in this opposition to get its full juice, but astrology cannot do the work for me!
Frankly this is a big piece in Pisces --a challenge I hope i can take.
I think that Pisces feels isolated in the mainstream western culture. It is only in certain places where it is safe and even accepted to show our water sides
Being with artists. Joining grand prayers and rituals that connect to the Divine for the elevation of all life. Pilgrimages to powerful sacred places... In such siutation I feel at home, alive, powerful!