Good love or bad love?

Hello, I have been doing astrology for a while. I have a few questions about this synastry. We have a strange connection. I’d like to ask you what you see, something? I know I am obsessed with him and at some mystical level I love him so much, but he hurts me badly.
I’m sorry about my bad English.

Are you the blue? It seems karmic and many karmic relationships can be very one sided and painful bc most of the time, while they seem personal, they're not. Meaning, you feeling more attached than the other person which seems like the case due to your outer planets making so many hard aspects with his. Especially Pluto