Lykanized
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I'm thinking about this because of another thread I replied to. For more info, my Venus is in Gemini in my 9th house conjunct my Midheaven, my Mars/Moon are conjunct in Virgo in my 12th house and square my Midheaven/conjunct my Ascendant, and Venus square Mars is also one of my tightest aspects
This is what I wrote...
"Now as for the Mars/Moon. I see that as going along with my Venus square Moon/Mars which for me means I'm extremely passionate but also find it near impossible to do anything unless I am passionate about it. So I may come off as fickle, even lazy. Lazy especially when I'm depressed or not as in touch with my passion periodically as I wish I was. On the flipside, when I am in touch with my passion, I can come off as more larger than life and like I have no off switch. I can be irritable and completely lack patience with people and I am known for oddly being both affectionate and warm, and quite physical or argumentative. I'm very much an expressive woman and I'm very drawn to art and aesthetics. If I do something, I don't go halfway, I go all the way and I think that comes off too
The Mars/Moon conjunct square is most interesting to me bc I feel this complete dysjunct between my passion and my drive. This is another thing I'm really, really working through right now and astrology helps. I have all of this love and passion in me, but find it hard to direct my energy and drive for whatever reason. It's odd. It doesn't sound like it makes sense at all. I sense all of these things I could do if my drive was aligned, but at the same time, the sign my Mars is in can be oppressive to my Gemini Venus and it's gonna require a lot of balance and introspection to get there. So I know I can come off as lazy and disinterested when in fact it's the opposite "
Has anyone else had an experience like this? In my case, I feel like my Virgo Mars can be oppressive to my Gemini Venus because part of me has a tendency to create plans and figure out exactly how to get to my goals, but another part of me NEEDS freedom. It needs room to actually create and feel my way through rather than work under routine. I actually hate routine, yet I realized I need a little bit of it. As a child, I was extremely flighty and I loved to learn random things, venture into various creative projects, but I had an abject lack of follow through power. So I know there has to be a balance
It's tough because once my Virgo Mars comes in and insinuates itself, I get overwhelmed as I just don't function well with routine and order. It puts too much pressure on me and rips away the heart and soul of my desires in life. I've recognized that that part of me that wants to pull in all this routine is working form the basis of anxiety and fear, a fear that if I don't have this order, I won't finish anything. To a certain degree, that may be true, but too much is counterproductive. I have to somehow channel my passion, the passion that is born when I get some kind of creative inspiration. I have to let myself always be in touch with that creative childhood energy, but just balance it rather than extinguish it
I think, at least...
I'm very all or nothing. I've had a tendency to, when I do anything, give so much of my mental and physical energy that I burn out too quickly and it has a lot to do with that Virgo Mars putting so much pressure on me to be perfect when I know rationally that perfection is nonexistant and striving for perfection ruins the purity and love of what we do. Despite that, I find it hard to just channel my passion and love without immediately jumping to all these goals
I'm just wondering if anyone else has ever had a similar experience and what they did to get through it. I feel like perhaps the only answer is to push through and just do, just create and follow my passion despite any anxiety I may feel and from there, I'll learn
This is what I wrote...
"Now as for the Mars/Moon. I see that as going along with my Venus square Moon/Mars which for me means I'm extremely passionate but also find it near impossible to do anything unless I am passionate about it. So I may come off as fickle, even lazy. Lazy especially when I'm depressed or not as in touch with my passion periodically as I wish I was. On the flipside, when I am in touch with my passion, I can come off as more larger than life and like I have no off switch. I can be irritable and completely lack patience with people and I am known for oddly being both affectionate and warm, and quite physical or argumentative. I'm very much an expressive woman and I'm very drawn to art and aesthetics. If I do something, I don't go halfway, I go all the way and I think that comes off too
The Mars/Moon conjunct square is most interesting to me bc I feel this complete dysjunct between my passion and my drive. This is another thing I'm really, really working through right now and astrology helps. I have all of this love and passion in me, but find it hard to direct my energy and drive for whatever reason. It's odd. It doesn't sound like it makes sense at all. I sense all of these things I could do if my drive was aligned, but at the same time, the sign my Mars is in can be oppressive to my Gemini Venus and it's gonna require a lot of balance and introspection to get there. So I know I can come off as lazy and disinterested when in fact it's the opposite "
Has anyone else had an experience like this? In my case, I feel like my Virgo Mars can be oppressive to my Gemini Venus because part of me has a tendency to create plans and figure out exactly how to get to my goals, but another part of me NEEDS freedom. It needs room to actually create and feel my way through rather than work under routine. I actually hate routine, yet I realized I need a little bit of it. As a child, I was extremely flighty and I loved to learn random things, venture into various creative projects, but I had an abject lack of follow through power. So I know there has to be a balance
It's tough because once my Virgo Mars comes in and insinuates itself, I get overwhelmed as I just don't function well with routine and order. It puts too much pressure on me and rips away the heart and soul of my desires in life. I've recognized that that part of me that wants to pull in all this routine is working form the basis of anxiety and fear, a fear that if I don't have this order, I won't finish anything. To a certain degree, that may be true, but too much is counterproductive. I have to somehow channel my passion, the passion that is born when I get some kind of creative inspiration. I have to let myself always be in touch with that creative childhood energy, but just balance it rather than extinguish it
I think, at least...
I'm very all or nothing. I've had a tendency to, when I do anything, give so much of my mental and physical energy that I burn out too quickly and it has a lot to do with that Virgo Mars putting so much pressure on me to be perfect when I know rationally that perfection is nonexistant and striving for perfection ruins the purity and love of what we do. Despite that, I find it hard to just channel my passion and love without immediately jumping to all these goals
I'm just wondering if anyone else has ever had a similar experience and what they did to get through it. I feel like perhaps the only answer is to push through and just do, just create and follow my passion despite any anxiety I may feel and from there, I'll learn
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